random small thoughts and stuffs

A small excerpt from one of my small book thingys I wrote

The sunlight was bright though the day itself seemed dreary. An aimless and pointless world full of people destined for nothing more than death. Perhaps, some may become semi- famous people of the art community, going on to win awards and be mourned by a significant number of the population, but many would just live to be your average person and to only be mourned by the small percentage of a county that knew of their existence to begin with. Maybe this was just an awful and negative mindset that I had, but who would ever know? Even more importantly, who would even care? Even though my family had always been messed up, I knew there was no one to blame for the mindset I had except for myself.

    My father had been different  from the rest of my family though. He had always tried to remind me of the bright side of things and attempted to reassure me that happiness was possible for me to obtain. Of course, his soul mate had been my control freak, abusive mother. He never left her for a number of ridiculous reasons, because she was his soulmate, because he was in love with her, because he had children, because he believed she could get better. Of course, he said that until the day she ended up snapping on him and my siblings, leaving a dark crimson stain on my past along with the pain of being completely alone to mourn their insignificance to everyone around me.

Maybe I should start publishing this on here as an actual story once I have a complete chapter but, who knows? I take forever to write stuff ahaha :'3