Babybreaths

part 2

He ran and called the ambulance. But it didn't matter in the end. I watched Dante die, slowly. This has to be a dream. a horrible nightmare. Margaret is still alive. Dante never dies. But if this was a dream, I might be in a coma... I've never felt less of a human than this moment in my life. Only laying in bed, not answering Saiyaku when he speaks to me, not eating. Sleeping all day and night...

I decided to call his parents using his phone. I explained everything that's happened. They where shoked. And suprised. Very sad too. It felt so awkward for me, but I suggested Aki go and live with then until he feels better. Of course I'll still see him. But hopefully his parents can do something about this better than I can. Nights alone felt so cold and empty... too quiet and lonely. But I've been thinking. Thinking about how I've stoped doing crime. How I've got a real job. How I feel good when I do good things. Why have I changed all of a sudden? I don't have nearly enough money to spoil Aki. Or pay bills. . . Maybe. One last time. To spoil Aki so much he can feel better.

I went to my man. I've never got his name. Or what his face looks like. And he never saw mine or knew my name either. I told him to give me as many jobs as I can get for the highest pay. He agreed and gave me the bag. I had the smuggle this across the state. I sighed a bit, being nervous about this... but I took the offer. I was given my promised amount of money when I did my job. But the money felt dirty, and fake...

I took the money and went to this store, Aki loved the cloths here. He'd always talk about this place. I went in and bought many things. Using up all the money I've just made. Feeling guilty when I gave them the money. I went home and placed the bags on the table. I looked at them all... I smiled to myself. He'll be coming home tomarrow night. So I'll get some shut eye.