One By One

I’ve always been the type to look forward to the future.  In a way it is instinctive to me, regardless of what has occurred in my life, I always know that it will change.

In a way looking ahead to the future can be a great perspective, it’s definitely a positive one and yet it creates troubling complications.

If you constantly look ahead you will never enjoy the present, and as a result you will never enjoy the full extent of life.

My words may be shocking to some and will be denied by others.  I know there are exceptions to my words yet there is an engrained truth, in looking ahead to the future you will loose the present. 

I’m getting ahead of myself of course, I have a tendency to do that, I’ve even come up with a word for it or actually it’s just a combination of words.

Non-teenager

It doesn’t make sense at first and I have to explain myself whenever I say it.

Teenagers as a whole are self-centered.  There are so many things that they are unaware of, (this also goes for adults but non-adult just sounds...wrong and I’ll continue to explain and soon I’ll make the second parenthesis sign) most of them are in their own bubble for a lack of explanation.  The bubble will be popped sometimes with news of epidemics or other tragedies, but it will eventually be closed.

Inside the bubble there’s also worry and an absurd amount of pressure (this also again is the same for adults but just give me another minute to explain) this worry and pressure comes mostly from two words.  High School.

In high school teenagers are expected (most of them anyway) in four years to maintain straight A’s, (or a grade relatively close to an A) have great friends, be active in school events, become the perfect son/daughter, escape drama, discover your (true) personality (and for some to change it), find out who you are, and know what you want to do for the rest of your life.

This sounds easy to adults because of course they’ve been through it already and survived, and of course they could do it all over again perfectly (note I’m being entirely sarcastic here).  High school changes like everything else in life and whether adults want to admit or not high school is terrifying and frankly a pain in the backside.

High school is also one of the most important “phases” of your entire life, and in my roundabout way what I’m trying to say is that I’m trying to become a teenager.

I should note that I am a teenager and that this is just my thoughts in my journal (or diary if I want to sound like I’m in elementary school again).

-Willow Andrews

(Author's Note: This as far as I know will be the only chapter where "Willow" will be writing in her journal all the chapters will not have the whole chapter consist of just a journal entry.)

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