Nothing Left To Fear (Book 1 of 2)

Thinking

Brianna's POV:

One Week Later:

I felt really bad for avoiding Nathan but I'm not good with situations like that. Guilt took over and so I turned my phone and listened to all the voicemails. He was really concerned and I was being a bitch by avoiding him. He must think I don't feel the same way. Or even worse, he thinks that the kiss was a mistake. Oh god, what have a done? I couldn't wonder now, I had texts to read. I opened and read the first one and then realized that there was more to that text. Seven texts later and I was crying my eyes out at how Nathan put everything on the line so that he could tell me how he really felt.

I wasn't sure if I could read the other twelve texts to I went to Becca and had her read them. I knew that I was in for an emotion-shattering ride because Becca looked as though she was ready to cry after reading his texts. "Was it really that sweet?" I asked curiously. "Read it and you'll see," was all that Becca said before leaving me there to read them. I can honestly say that this boy has really strong feelings towards me but do I feel the same way? Who am I kidding, of course I do. But how am I supposed to tell him how I feel after I just ignored all of his calls and texts? I have a lot of thinking to do if I wanna do this right but I couldn't ask any of my girlfriends. So, I called Marcus and told him to meet me at the cafe at six tonight.

Later at the cafe:

"Hey Bri." Marcus said. "Hey Marcus. How have you been?" He asked with a little concern. "Oh, I'm good. I just need your take on something." I said hesitantly. "Like what?" I wasn't sure whether or not he was gonna be unbiased but he was the only person that barely knew me and Nathan. I took a deep breath and started explaining what happened a week ago. I felt a little weird telling this to somebody I just met but I felt like I could trust Marcus. "So…what do you think?" I asked curiously. "Honestly, I think you both should figure out whether or not the kiss will lead to anything or if it was just a onetime thing." I shook my head because Marcus was completely right.

I knew, in my mind, what the kiss meant and so did Nathan, but I never actually talked about it. "Was the kiss a mistake?" Marcus asked curiously. "It was a dare, but the kiss wasn't like any kiss I've had before." He shook his head. I didn't know what Marcus was thinking but I knew that he was here to help me and I was grateful. "So, you said the kiss was a dare, right?" I nodded. "Did he kiss anybody else that night?" I was taken aback by that question but I answered anyway. "Yeah, why?" I asked looking confused. "What was the difference between your kiss with him and the other kiss?" I had to think back to that night but the only thing I could think of was the passion in me and Nathan's kiss. That's it!!!! "There was more passion and it lasted longer." I said with enthusiasm.

Marcus looked a little disappointed before saying, "Time doesn't matter. What matters is how it made you feel." I realized that he was right, again. "It made me feel like nothing and nobody mattered." Oh my god, I think Marcus maybe an angel. He smirked and that's when I realized that he knew what I was thinking. "Um, I gotta go. Can I talk to you later?" I asked and he nodded. After that I jumped in my car and drove home as fast as I could. I had something to do and it needed to be done now.

Nathan's POV:

I finally arrived in Gloucester. I was happy to be home but I felt as though something was missing. I brushed it off and went to baggage claim. "Nathan!!!" I turned around to see my sister, Jess, running towards me with the biggest smile I've ever seen. Seeing her definitely made me feel better but I still wasn't 100% happy. So I grabbed my bags and walked to the car with Jess, who struggled with my bags. "Weakling." I said smirking. "Shut up!" she said in response. Me and Jess aren't the type fighting brother and sister pair, because we actually get along and try to help the other.

"So, how's America?" she asked nosily. "It's great; everybody over there has been really nice." "No duh Nathan. You're a part of one of the world’s most popular boy bands." she said sarcastically. "Anyway, did you find yourself a girlfriend yet?" I was definitely confused by that question but I had to be honest. "Nope." I said sadly. "Oh my god, the Nathan Sykes doesn't have a girlfriend. What's the world gonna do now?" I loved Jess' sarcasm because it always made me smile. "Haha, very funny." I couldn't wait to get home; I missed my family and the privacy that comes along with being home. "We're here." Jess stated. It feels great to be back home. Now I can just relax for the next two weeks and not be concerned with anything back in America.

One Week Later:

I was enjoying being with my family but I couldn't stop thinking about Brianna and why she hadn't called me yet. Maybe I was right; maybe the kiss meant nothing to her. Maybe it was just a dare and she wanted to stay friends. Ugh, I need to figure out how to distract myself from thinking about her, so I decided to watch TV but everything on TV reminded me of her. So, I went upstairs into the music room and just started playing some old songs like: "Warzone" and "Hi and Low."

I played until the door opened and then Jess came in. "Girl troubles?" I knew I couldn't lie to Jess so I told her the whole story and by the end, she was speechless. "Did you try calling her the past week?" I hadn't thought about calling her but with my previous call history with Brianna, I didn't think calling I'd would get any result. I shook my head. "Come on Nathan. We're Sykes. We don't give up and we won't start now." That pep talk was really short but Jess had a point, so I picked up the phone and called Brianna. It rang and then she answered. I was stunned that she actually answered; it hadn't fully sunk in that she answered so I just sat there with the phone to my ear. Jess then grabbed the phone and said hello. We fought over the phone and once I got it back, Brianna already hung up. Like I said before, I am the worst with girls and this situation is gonna need a lot of explaining.

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