needed me ━ jikook

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,,yah,go back"jimin chuckles slightly,letting the glass filled with alcohol fall onto the ground of the bar.the disco's filled with a bunch of people dancing such to a volume of a bad music that jimin thought he would be deaf at any second.
But he probably couldn't care less and yoongi obviously sensed that,telling him to go back and rest well.

But little dose he still not know why jimin just couldn't go back or further why it made him uncomfortable in the dorm?
However,jimins eyes once again scans through the whole disco,searching for some love in a complete stranger.

Hoping it would help him ease the pain his heart laid in.the disco was a place he has visited often as they didn't have a certain shedule to follow or any fansigns.

Getting recklessly drunk was one of the main things he dose nowadays too,ending up in a corner of the bathroom in their dorm,probably namjoon who's dragging him there with the help of seokjin,who jimin is sure of is being done with him.he could swear to the love of his for food that he once heard him whisper at namjoon when he was once again drunk,"why is he like this?",it wasn't what he said it was rather the way he said it.

Okay,he's been an egoistic ass for a long time now,only thinking about his own happiness,lust and health.not even once did he turn on his adidas shoes to ask for the members well doing,nor doing a v live with them for a few weeks now.he could tell they were worried.his family,his members and even his fans recognized the change of his behaviour and well being.

But he couldn't ever straightaway tell them what had happened to make him look this way - to act this way.all of them asked how he's doing and if he's okay nowadays: replying with a kind yes and a small smile:ensuring the lies he tells each time in such a way they all believe him.

| I've been running with wolves,
To get to you. |

Alcohol was a good opportunity to forget things or completely want to drown those thoughts away for a while with,if you ever drink it.but at the same time it calls out a lot of disadvantages to consum it.

For example:one night he had drunken so many bottles of alcohol strong alcohol,that he completely forgot where their dorm was leading him to knock on an old ladys door being only in his underwear,where and why he left his clothes somewhere was still unclear to him.

Yoongi watched the younger getting drunk,drinking one after another glass,gulping it all with an disgusted expression on his face.there must have happened something that totally destroyed jimin.making him that unhappy and desperate that he would need to drink alcohol to overcome what ever was following him for some weeks now.

It was such a hard thing he had to endure,having to notice how one of your closest friends is being all drown in sadness consuming alcohol without any limit being known for himself.the music in the ony got louder for yoongis vision of all this happening.

Still,he's still sitting on that chair looking over to jimin sitting nearly lying on the floor in front of him.he choose to lift him up and carry him back to their dorm as he knew it wouldn't be too long and jimin would be throwing up all over the bar,so he left for the better with jimin on his back and his hand around his neck using his head as kind of an pillow.

At one in the morning they arrived at the dorm,yoongi being all drown out - tired to his limit,but he couldn't just leave now and go to bed while the younger would hang with his head over the toilet doing what he has been for a couple of weeks now.as if it was a morning routine jimin choose to play off.

"Hyung,can you get me some water?"jimin pleaded,his voice being shaky and unsteady while cough are heard in between.yoongi slowly noods running for a glass of water jimin was badly in need of getting,rushing back with an half full glass of water,jimin looked at him smiling softly.

Holding it in his hand,the younger notices the dropping off of  the water around the glass meaning that yoongi probably slipped some of the water out of the glass and on the floor which was already slippery enough,much to the members dislikes as taehyung was an expert for falling on his butt.

Rinsing down,whatever jimin threw out of his body,the toilet he slowly lets his head sink again to a lower position.avoiding any eye contact with yoongi as he knew he would probably spill the truth,talk about the way it made him feel and how hard it has been.
He didn't want him to be more disappointed in him as jimin suspected him to.

"You can't run away from it forever.",
Yoongi carefully closes the Door behind them not wanting for anyone else to be awakened because of them.jimin sighed in frustration stuck in between his demon thoughts and his feelings,shouldl he tell him,should he open up?."just tell me what's happening to you,please..".

The youngers avoidance rised each second which went by,but he knew he would tell yoongi what's going on with him:what makes him balance on a thin edge.

It was still weird to think about it and getting closer with the thought of telling yoongi about it.

About what went down four weeks ago.