How Do You Feel?

What Are You Doing?

Grief. That is just about all I am able to feel at this very moment. My sister. My oh-so-lonely sister. Her life exited her body not long ago. Taken from a heavy illness that I really.. would just prefer not to go into too much detail about. It is leaving me with just about nothing but heartbreak to where I don't know what to do.

My narrow eyes begin to tear up as I hold a picture of my dearest older sister. How I truly loved that woman so. I must be so young. How could I cry this hard when all she told me whilst growing up was that I shouldn't break down and that I should always stay strong? What am I even to do? I have no friends... no relatives... nobody at all.

Really, that doesn't matter though. Even if I did have friends or another sister, nobody could fill that aching hole in my heart. Never. It can never go away until she comes back.

Snapping out of my regular, daily daydream, I slowly open my heavy eyes who would begin releasing tears seconds later.

"Kiiiiiyo!"

My eyes shift to where the voice is coming from. Right next to me is an upbeat girl that belongs to the same elementary class as I. Why would she even talk to me? Not to mention call me "Kiyo"?

"Aah.. oh no, you're crying again.. is this because of Miy-" She cuts herself off. It seems like she completely understood what was wrong and realized she shouldn't mention her name.

I can see she was hoping I would just ignore her startup, but she went so far in the sentence it would be rude of me to just not answer. What a considerate girl... I'm sure Miyadera would simply love her if they got to meet. I don't believe it would be so great to assume they would get along. After all, she seems like she's just a classmate that I don't know- at the moment.

"Yes, unfortunately my tears truly do grow off of what happened to... Miyadera," I twirl a bit of my hair with my finger as I say so, right before pushing some of my short-cut hair from my face.

The upbeat girl doesn't look so enthusiastic for a few moments, feeling embarrassed due to saying something so inappropriate to a boy after his sister died.

"Kiyo! I'm soooooo sorry! If you'd like it, can we go to the woods as an apology..? I have a special rock I go to, to make myself feel better. Don't you know?"

A rock.....
A rock. Humans are really strange aren't they? Though I suppose if she is so happy of it, I have nothing to lose.

Truth be told I haven't and refuse to get rid of my sister's corpse. She needs to stay at home.. with me. As gross as that sounds.

I look at her and lightly tilt my head, clearly seeming curious, but the girl looks cautious. Suppose I scared her just a little.

"I don't believe I have anything to lose, hm?... When can I meet with you and where?"

Her eyes show off that she's no longer as tense, but still not entirely as calm as I wish she would be.

"You accepted! I got you, I got you! Umm.. let's meet in four days aaaat the side entrance close to the west path. Does that sound okay?"

To be entirely clear, I'm not sure about this. Something about this situation is making me uneasy, but really...

My sister would love that girl. I must try my best to observe her.