I remember a month, maybe two months in,
I remember the first time you said her name,
I remember how you said it,
I noticed but I trusted you.
I remember you being honest with me,
The first time, shortly after that,
You had been "talking" to someone else,
I remember her name too,
Duly noted, but I trusted you.
I remember the girl you loved before me,
The girl you loved before her,
The girls you loved during me,
I remember it all,
And yet I trusted.
I remember noticing,
Knowing,
Denying,
And ultimately pretending.
I remember our first date,
Our first kiss,
Our first fight,
Every first,
Every last,
And every inbetween.
I noticed every tilted away screen,
Every ignored until I left text,
Every call sent to voicemail around me,
Every time my presence wasn't mentioned to someone else,
Every time I was removed from the narrative.
I remember every poem,
Post,
Hashtag,
And subtlety.
I always noticed,
But I never thought,
Never imagined my trust would be shattered,
My heart would be too.
When I finally clued in,
I put together every piece,
There was no denying the truth,
With one sentence I knew it all.
Distance makes the heart grow fonder,
And you were genuinely pushing me away.
Love makes you absolutely and pathetically blind,
Until you find the right lens,
Until everything is clear as day.
Finally you see,
You have not been loved and treated like you deserve,
You have not been happy,
Just blissfully ignorant,
Deciding that every sign wasn't worthy of attention,
Because you trusted.
