Carried Away

Panic

"Summer you need to talk about this."

"No Sawyer I really don't"

"You woke up shaking and crying in the middle of the night."

"I know exactly how I woke up last night. But guess what Sawyer? That was last night I'm perfectly fine now." Maybe coming over here last night was a mistake. After I woke up last night Sawyer pulled me closer to him, and I was fine. The nightmare was completely forgotten. So why the hell is he bringing it up now?

"You're clearly not fine if you had two nightmares in one night."

"I HAVE NIGHTMARES EVERY FUCKING NIGHT! I DON'T NEED TO TALK ABOUT THEM!" I'm pissed right now. He doesn't have the right to make me talk to him if I don't want to. 

"Every night?" He says in a small voice. Why the hell does he sound so scared? It's not his problem its mine, and I'm dealing with it just fine. 

"Summer please let me help you." He's begging. But he doesn't seem to get the point.

"I don't need help I'm fine."

"No you're not." 

"Are you fucking stupid? I just told you I'm fine." Before this point we were standing in the middle of the room arguing but now he has me backed up against the wall. For a second I think he's going to kiss me. Until he opens his mouth and says "don't ever call me stupid again." He says this in one of the deadliest voices I've ever heard. But I've never been one to get intimidated and now is not an exception.

"Then don't act stupid." I can tell I've went a little to far. He looks like he's going to snap. Before I can apologize he speaks.

"You know what? You're fucking crazy. You come over here because you have a nightmare, then have another one and refuse to talk to me. You're pathetic." I honestly wish he would have just punched me right now. It would hurt a whole lot less than this. Last night he told me that Danielle played on all of his insecurities, and that's exactly what he's doing now. He knows exactly what he's doing, and he's doing this to hurt me. I remembering specifically telling him about how much I hate being called pathetic the night we played twenty one questions. 

The door suddenly swings wide open and Brian comes in. He glances over our way before saying "I can go if you guys want me to."

"No that's fine I was just leaving." With that  I walk out of the room without a backward glance at the boy I was falling for. 

I refuse to cry over this. 

Why would he... How could he be so mean? What did I do? I mean I know I made him mad but I didn't deserve that. Did I? I don't think anyone deserves to have their insecurities played with like that. I'd never do that to someone, but then again not everyone is like me.

The world is slowly starting spin as I'm thinking. Everything is falling apart. I can't breathe. Nor can I stand. I drop to the ground. 

I'm sobbing and shaking in the middle of the hall when I hear my name being called. 

I can't think enough to respond but the voice sounds vaguely familiar. I'm suddenly floating and I hear more voices.

"What happened to her?"

"I don't fucking know. She was on the floor in the hall like this." I know I can't really say anything, but do they have to talk about me like I'm not here? 

"Summer, calm down baby girl everything's ok." 

"That's not gonna help she needs to go to the hospital." 

"No. I think she's having a panic attack. She just needs to relax." This voice sounds so sure of himself. I'm pretty sure its a guy, but I have no idea who is holding me. 

Am I really having a panic attack? Wow maybe Sawyer was right I am pathetic. He wouldn't be the first person to say that and most likely won't be the last. 

No don't think of it now just try to calm down. Focus on the voices. 

"It's not working. We need to take her somewhere." This voice is filled with panic. I get the sense that he cares about me. It's definitely one of my friends, but I can't tell which one.

"Summer baby please try to calm down." I'm trying. This is definitely another one of my friends. His voice is soothing, relaxing. Which one of them calls me baby? 

I don't think anyone does the only person that calls me baby is my dad, and he's not here. 

It's really frustrating not to know who is talking to me. Even worse they're holding me.

"Can you stop rocking me? It's making me sick." My voice is back. I'm still out of breathe, still shaking, but better. 

"Oh my God. Are you ok?" The panicked voice is definitely coming from Jaylen. 

"Baby?" That's Cameron. Since when does he call me baby? 

I decide now is probably a good time to open my eyes. I don't necessarily remember closing them in the first place. I slowly force my eyes open and I see two boys leaning over me. 

I'm in Jaylen's room. Sitting in Cameron's lap. Both of them are watching me intently.

"Since when do you call me baby?" I question innocently. Cameron chuckles, Jaylen lets out a sigh of what I assume to be relief.

"I don't know. It just came out, but in a way you're my baby." Jaylen and I both raise our eyebrows in question towards Cameron.

"I think of you kinda like a baby. Like I need to protect you and make sure everything is ok." Aw Cameron is so sweet and adorable.

"Thanks daddy." Ok maybe I shouldn't call him daddy. Jaylen barks out a laugh. As I slide off of Cameron's lap Jaylen pulls me in a tight hug. "Are you sure you're ok?" 

"I'd rather not talk about it. But I'm fine." 

Cameron. and Jaylen both glance at each other. Apparently they've decided to  not talk about it. See Sawyer? It's not that hard. 

"I'm going to my room for a nap now." I say to the boys. 

"Take a nap here." Jaylen suggests. I don't really feel like walking back to my room so I agree. I curl up into Jaylen's bed immediately. Cameron leaves and I fall asleep again.

This time completely free of nightmares.

"Let's go out tonight."

"Are you sure you're ok Summer."

"Jaylen I'm fine. We've been sleeping almost all day. Lets go have some fun." 

"Alright go get ready. You look like shit." This is why I love Jaylen he's always so playful. I smack Jaylen in the back of the head before leaving to get ready.

My wavy hair is a tangled mess. I have no idea what to wear ,but I'm determined to get over this. I thought Sawyer was a nice person. He proved me wrong. We were never together but I still feel the need to move on from him.

Jaylen is the perfect friend for this. He's fun and loves to party just as much as I do. 

 Jaylen comes to my room at 11. By this time I'm fully dressed, my hair, and makeup are done.

"No hoes tonight. I'm coming back with you." I warn Jaylen. He has a reputation for bringing girls back to his room every once in a while. My roommate has told me she will most likely be hooking up with someone tonight. I have no plans in being in the room at that time so I'm staying with Jaylen. 

(Aw Summer and Sawyer's first fight although there's nothing cute about it. It was pretty serious  There's going to be alot more drama coming. So be ready for that. So Summer had a panic attack do you think that happens a lot? Whats going on with Summer clearly somethings not right? She's not really as happy as she seems. Happy Thursday my little doritos).