Depression and Suicidal

Eating disorder

I felt bad for myself because I didn't eat for 3/4 months, I only ate some snacks, and ate some food that is healthy. I felt sad about starving myself. I had a mental breakdown of how I'm getting told that I'm "Fat" "ugly" and "Stupid". It hurts to try to be pretty like the other girls that has the perfect body and a perfect face shape. I look at the mirror of the 3/4 month and was proud of how skinner I was. I was excited to go to school and see how shock people would be when they saw my body. But one time when I went to school, I was still getting laughed at because people knew I was starving myself to look skinny and slim. A girl told me that I was a "Wanna-be" her, she pushed me and left me crying. I was still in the bathroom when it happened. I stayed there all day, I went to sleep after crying, a teacher saw my laying there and thought I died. She shakes me and says my name loud enough to have the other teachers to come in the bathroom. I wake up and see people around me and wondered why were they there..? I never had people care about me.. it was just me and my dad at home whose a alcoholic, and go out to the bar all the time.