Hold On ~ Fack

~Chapter 1~

~Jacks P.O.V~
I woke up in a place I have never seen before. I fling up and realize I'm in my new house. I look over to my clock and see that it is 11:00.

 So I get out of bed and go down stairs. I see my mom passed out on the couch like usual. I go over to the table and grab the empty beer bottles off of the table.

I realize how hungry I am as I throw away the bottles. I go into the bath room and step on the scale. (Btw he is 13.) It reads 80 pounds. "Just a little more," I say to myself quietly. 

As I leave the bathroom I see my mom waking up. My eyes widen as I realize I did not clean up the house before she woke up. I run upstairs and hide in the closet. I hear my mom yell my name loudly. I wait a few minutes till I think she is asleep again.

I get out of the closet and shut the door behind me. As I turn around I see my mom looking at me. And she looked pissed. She walks over to me. I walk backwards until I am in a corner. She grabs me by the shirt and reared her hand back about to punch me. Right as her hand was about to impact with my face there was a knock on the door. 

She glared at me for a second and then let me go. "Go get the door. Now!" she whisper/yelled at me. Then she left. I was in to much of shock to get off the floor until there was a second knock on the door.

I then got up and ran to the door. I opened it to see a woman with her son. "H-hi," I stuttered. "Oh hi. We are the neighbors we decided to come over and introduce ourselves. Is your mom here?" "Hello! Come in." I hear my mom say cheerfully behind me. 

"its very nice to meet you I'm Angela and this is my son Finn, He is 14. How old is your boy?" "Oh I'm Morgan.This is Jack, He is 13. Speaking of Jack. Dear may you please go get us some tea and then go to your room, Its a mess." she asks me as they sit on the couch. "Yes mom," I mumble. "oh Finn go help him please," Angela says. "Sure," he says as he gets up and starts following me to the kitchen.

"So your Jack?" he asks me trying to start up a conversation. "Ya, can you go give these to them?" I ask him holding out two glasses of tea. He just nods and takes them from my hand. I run up to my room and sit on my bed.

 I look at the ceiling until I hear the door open. I look over and see Finn. We lock eyes for a second and feel a light blush come to my face. Yes, I am gay by the way. (hey that rhymes XD) He comes and sits beside me. We decide to play video games Until he has to leave.

~1 Hour Later~

It was time for Finn to go home. I looked at the clock and saw that it was 7:00 Which means it was time for my mom to get drunk off her mind and then beat the shit out of me later. "bye," I say quietly to Finn. He says bye back but then come over to me and gives me a hug. I blush like crazy then they leave.

~Warning depression and suicide ahead~

My mom shuts the door behind them and comes over to me. She picks me up and throws me on the ground she then kicks me in the stomach multiple times while saying things that were a little blurry for me to hear.

"Your a fucking fag that no one likes. You think he is gay? no he is not! He is normal non like you. No one loves you. I even hate you. Why do you think you father left. Because of you. Your Worthless. Just kill yourself already!" she screamed at me with one last kick but this time to the face. She then walks to the kitchen to most likely grab a beer.

I get up and wince. I walk into the bathroom to see the damage she did. I see that I have a black eye forming, a busted lip, and multiple cuts on my face. I lift my shirt to see more bruises. My mothers words kept repeating in my head.

Kill yourself. Fag. No one loves you. Worthless. 

I screamed because it was giving me a migraine and flashbacks to my old school. I sat in the corner of my bathroom and cried for a 30 minutes until I decided to do something. something everyone wanted. or at least close to it.

I want into my cabinet and got out my razor.

Fag.

1 cut

Ugly.

2nd cut.

Worthless.

3rd cut.

My arms started getting aggravated. I quickly grabbed the pain killers out of the cabinet.

Kill yourself.

3 pills.

~end of depression and suicide~

I cleaned up the blood and pills. I then got out dizzy so I went to my bed. I got into my bed and had a nightmare that night. 

A terrible nightmare...

A/N ~ sorry not sorry for the cliffhanger. How do you guys like the story so far also any suggestions? ~ Love, Jasmine <3