I'm in choir at my middle school and we had an after school rehearsal. I was waiting for something to happen and the girl behind me started to talk about the person two chairs from me. I couldn't help but laugh. But when I was leaving the class with my friends, the person walked out looking sad. They must have heard the girl behind me to be that was.
I had my fights with this person and I feel bad after each one. It hurts them and me. I know they are going through things, but in that time in moment I was not thinking. I wanted to be friends with them but it didn't work out. I feel really bad for laughing.
When I got home, I made a lot of sad musically's. I don't know what is going on in my head but I feel like I don't have much to look forward to anything. I can't have depression. I'm happy almost all day. I fine joy in my favorite YouTubers and my best friends. What is wrong with me. My mood can change very quickly if you hit me in the wrong spot. I'm a very sensitive person but this is not like me. It's probably that I have lost people this school year that it hurts and I feel alone. The counselor at my school said that I might need time by myself sometimes. And sometimes I find joy in being alone but I find joy in hanging around people.
I'm so confused. Am I going through something bad?
