LOST 1ST LOVE

                                     A REAL LOVE STORY OF A VERY TEEN AGE BOY

     I was just 10 years old then.One day my parents told me that they had arranged a tour to "Chandipur". I felt very happy.Gradually I came to know about two more families going with us. It was 15th september when the families assembled in our house. I saw a cute little girl of my age.She was also a member of our tour. As the time went on we started to talk to each other like a friend, who knew one day this girl would make me crazy? We enjoyed every bit of that trip but when we returned got to our own apartments we started to miss each other....Months went by.......and after a couple of months we went to "Digha" with the same family..Our relationship grew up strong and day by day I realized how special she is to me..but I did not know then what love is..

              After a couple of years I turned to 14..and we went to vizag..another guy whom I used to call dada and another sister tagged along with us...My dada was 17 years old then..he wanted this girl badly...he wanted her as his girlfriend..he always tried to impress her...It was the time when I felt what pain can be...If someone snatches your love there is bound to be a wound in your heart..I became angry and annoyed..and one day I slapped him hard..my parents had beaten me up for this mischief.I did not tell or rather could not tell my parents what made my real mad about my dada , a girlfriend snatcher......One fine day all my anger washed out when I came to know about the girl with whom I had fallen in love was actually much more in love with me....I was surprised , astonished...actually I cant tell what was the feeling like then...she avoided my dada every time when he wanted to get closer to her.....On 1st january we celebrated the new year festival at a hotel in vizag...everyone danced their heart out and soon became tired and sleepy.I was as usual tagging with the girl I had fallen for..we started to chit chat...all of a sudden she started to cry....I couldn't find any reason of her crying....I hugged her tight and tried to console her..I could still hear the silent sobs and It was bothering me....And then an incident happened..may be I would remember that till my last breath..She hugged me and kissed me..I felt her wet lips on mine and the world seemed heaven for the first time.....It was my first kiss and she made it the most beautiful one.she tell me that she loves me ant then i replaied her "i love u to".I gazed at her for an hour....... After 2 days we returned home......Those days were amazing....I had a beautiful girl friend and I used to show off in front of my buddies...we used to meet each other every day.....

             After two years of sweet memories and overflowing emotions two of my friends tried to break our relationship,,,break my heart lets put it this way...........One of my friends tried to shift me from the relationship...that asshole tried to make a relationship with me and his sister..and I took the most disastrous decision in my whole life....I decided to break up with my previous girlfriend...I went to her room and told her that I cant continue with our relationship...I told her that I love someone else...she cried helplessly...I didn't console her...I had to be stern. I could not realize the value of her tear drops...I was a 15 year old guy who perhaps knew nothing about love..........................

         A year went by....... I didn't have any feelings about the new girl in my life....perhaps she knew it too...my indifference about her was increasing at a rate of exponential phase..and this new girl left me knowing that my soul was never in this relationship..I used to hate this girl as she was the reason why I left my love.....by this time I had surely known what love is and how much I love her.....and like all broken hearts my heart also felt that I should apologize to my true girl friend and have her back in my life.....but broken hearts are hard to repair...all I got was disappointment and pain...when I told her that I was really sorry about what I had done and I just want another chance I saw a tear drop in the left corner of her eyes....I wanted to wipe it off quickly but couldn't do so...She told me that we can't patch up again,It was too late....She had waited for me for a long time and finally she got herself a new boyfriend...I couldn't tell her anything..my broken heart broke once again and was shattered into pieces...The girl who was once only mine, who was madly in love with me was now seeing another guy..I cried in front of her like a 3 year baby.....but she went away...I came back home with glimpses of her face and glimpses of my face which reflected upon her tear drop...I became optimistic.....i want that she talk with me daily by phone.first some days she talk with me but after some days she did not reply my question.only in my dream i saw her.I thought that she would come back to me.She would realize my true love for her.....but as the days went by she went further away...I went to a different world of dreams...I thought about those times when we were together...she was the world to me....

        Friends, this is a true story which happend many of mans life in their early age...It not only has all the pains & frustrations but has the most sweetest memories  ...no one cant get those days back...I request all my buddies to never play around with your beloved one....You can win some emotional battles but you will loose the battle of life eventually.....dont let your love go as if she goes away from u she can go away with all your happiness......