Enduring (EXO)

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' What's wrong if he is in a relationship? Loving him like this secretly wouldn't hurt anyone, right?'

Jinri's mind screamed when she stared at Chanyeol who was laughing with Sehun. She unconsciously heaved a sigh and looked away from him.

" Jinri..", her attention got up when Soojung called her.

Jinri looked up to Soojung, " I am sorry. I really didn't know that he has a girlfriend already.", the latter looked down with a sigh.

" Nothing is your faults, Soojung. You don't need to apologize because you never set me up with him... You just.. you just opened my eyes to see that I like him..", Jinri said almost in whimper at her last sentence.

Soojung turned her head to the girl beside her. She had expected Jinri to like Chanyeol. But still, it was quite shocked to hear from the lips of an introvert girl like her. Jinri rarely opens her feelings to others, including her. But just now, she did. A big secret feeling of her tiny and weak heart.

" Jinri, Soojung, come on, let's go for snacks.", they both quitting the thoughts at the sound of their senior.

Jinri smiled softly at him and Soojung could see the pain in her smile.

•••••

That day was fun for all of them. They went to arcade for some games. Sehun and Chanyeol played almost every games well. Jinri played a few too, together with Soojung. Soojung played some with Sehun too. And finally, Chanyeol and Jinri ended up laughing at the childish bickering between the dancers.

Jinri forgot what depression is while she was with them. That's what she truly feels thankful to them. She felt like her world was lightening whenever she is around them. Especially with Chanyeol, Jinri never failed to laugh at even his lame jokes.

Jinri became so sure of her feelings and the decision. The decision that she did to love him from a far secretly. Like this, she has been doing until now.

When they parted ways, Sehun and Jinri took the same way while Chanyeol and Soojung did the other way.

While they were on bus, it was awkwardly quiet. Sehun didn't fail to notice that she has been shifting to the window as if she was afraid of their skin ships. As far as he knew, Jinri never cared about skin ships. Just like the first time they touched.

But with him these days, she has been cared.

" Did you have fun, today?", Sehun asked breaking the cold silence out.

" Yeah.. Thanks to all of you.", Jinri answered without looking at him. It is what Sehun feels most jealous to Chanyeol. Jinri has never set her eyes on him whenever talking, while with Chanyeol, she did nearly stare at him.

The silence once took again and the bus swayed a bit causing them to shake a little.

Jinri immediately flinched at the touch of their arms. Sehun didn't miss that. He sighed softly and got up from his seat. Jinri looked up to him only to find him take the seat behind hers.

" Why?", she softly asked.

Sehun crossed his arms over his broad chest and closed his eyes in peace. " I will sleep for a moment. So wake me up if we are at the right stop.".

Jinri blinked and raised her brows when Sehun seemed like intending to sleep for real. She lets him do.

Jinri settled herself on her seat comfortably. She has been always cautious about skin ships with men. Chanyeol was just accidental. She wouldn't prevent anything that had been done happening. But she stayed as much as away from the touches. Excluding those unnoticed and accidental ones she had with Chanyeol and Sehun.