I know that you love me

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JULIA'S POV

I didn't know how to react, what to do.

Melissa is my best friend, she is like a sister to me now even though I only met her at work ten months ago. She was the first person that I got close to when I came to New York. She helped me in moving in and she introduced me to a lot of other people who soon also became my friends. She also listened to me and was with me when I needed her. She was there for me when no one else was. She is such an amazing and wonderful person who doesn't deserve anything bad.

Why does this person wants me to hurt her like that?! It doesn't make sense to me! Who even sends such E-Mails?! Why do they want to destroy my and my friends' life?!

After thinking about this all, I decided that it could wait till tomorrow, that I should just sleep it off and that's what I did after a few hours of laying down.

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I woke in the morning from the alarm and I immediately felt Ken's hand resting over my waist.

I resisted the urge of removing it because he would then sense that something's wrong so I stayed stiff in my spot and tried not to move.

"Hey honey", he said after a while as he sat up and stretched.

"Hey", I said also sitting up.

Ken looked at me weirdly, "Are you feeling ok, sweetheart? You look kinda tired"

"Yeah, I am fine, babe, it's just those tests are really getting to me", I sometimes wonder how is it possible that I could be able to lie like that to the love of my life.

"Oh, I told you, honey, that you'd be able to pull through. They are only a bunch of tests", he said, smiling.

I nodded and sighed under my breath as I got up to go to the closet.

"Julia", Ken suddenly called my name, "I can see that something is wrong, you've recently been like- that- I don't know-", he said impatiently and clearly expecting a quiet and well built response and guess what he didn't get one, "What?! God! Do you have a problem with me?! If you have one then go on- say it! Don't just go beating around the bush! I don't like that! Just be fucking straight forward! Or you know what?! Don't! 'Cause I can now see who you really are! You are just trying to bring me down! You know what fuck you! All you want to do is go to the fucking Brittney bitch! Yes! Go! Run back to her like a fucking child who hasn't seen his mother in years! I am sure she'd give you things that I can't give you and that she doesn't have any problems, 'cause she's perfect!", I yelled at him.

I was breathing heavily after I was done and then I began to feel my tears beginning to gather.

Shit, I fucked up, I shouldn't have said all of this I didn't mean to shout at him, fuck this is all to much!

"Fuck, just give me a fucking break!", I shouted at him one last time and sniffled.

I turned away from his face to go to the bathroom. I then went and wore the clothes that I previously threw on the floor and applied my make up, "Wait! Stop it! I love you, Julia!", Ken said as I was wearing my coat, ready to head to school, "Just give me a break", I told me softly, my throat still a bit sore, and then closed the door behind me.

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As soon as I arrived at school, I went straight to the toilet to sort out my thoughts.

I closed the toilet seat and sat on it and then I breathed out.

Ok, Juls, you can do this. You are only doing this to protect your friend and let this bitch give you a peace of mind.