Let's hide is HADSOME name into Rafael ... Rafael is all I dream for , he is handsome for me , he got the moves I want from a boy , he makes me feel I'm really loved , except for one day ..............
ELEMENTARY GRADE 6
Galit AKO doon SA MGA batang nag mamadali mag DALAGA like ... Yung ALAM NYO NA yon! .. I just hate those kind of things ... But I realized 3 years ago GANON AKO ... So I couldn't forgive my self for the kind of stupidest of my side .... So here it goes
ELEMENTARY GRADE 5
Being me was never an easy thing ... COZ like every time every day I cry KASE ANG father Ko .. Malayo SAAKIN , he is in America since I was a baby , so it means like ever since DI KO nakasama papa KO SA PAG LAKI KO ..... So KULANG AKO SA discipline. KULANG AKO sa guidance NG parents KO .
sparklingmadison was my closest friend that time .. She always shout like NA parang NANDYAN si ultimate crush NYANG si JEON JUNGKOOK 😒 so yon . She is one of my diary ,, she knows every single step I made ... 😂😅 yup COZ she is my diary ... She knows GANO KO KA crush si Rafael ... But like ewwwww 😂😂😂...
POV
ISANG ARAW KAMING Lahat SA classroom nanonood NG horror movie "LIGHTS OUT" where me and Rafael was on the floor HOLDING HANDS😝😝😝😣 ( before Siguro DAHIL SA love Hindi AKO nandidiri .. But now when life hits me .. I'm pretty much sure NA na sakal KO NA SANA SARILI KO Dati DAHIL SA kalandian ) Like everyone in the classroom shouts "AYIEEEEEEEEE" (before TAWA Lang AKO KASE I'm dumb ) well AFc TAWA RIN si guy DIBA 😒.... Until that time right after we watch the movie ... Nag brownout ANG BWESET !! .... SYEMPRE open doors Kami KASE MAINIT ... Lahat nag sisilabasan NG classroom KASE MAINIT ... Then right after Rafael pull me inside the classroom .. Then AFc I'm shock .. AKALA KO Kung ANO gagawin SAAKIN .. KASE Kung Meron masasapak KO sya ... Kumuha sya NG UPUAN ... Then pinaupo Nya AKO ... Then SYEMPRE sya RIN ... Tong sira ULO NYANG BESTFRIEND (hide his name into tob) TOB shut the door and left a flash light from a phone ... He keeps on sweeping and sweeping the floor ... And right after .... RAFAEL HUG ME TIGHT... and Malay Kong NASA labas ANG susi NG classroom ... SA kinasamaang palad bestie got it ... And AFc I'm shock KASE BIGLA BIGLA NG HUHUg tong si guy ... Then BIGLA bumukas yung door ... With the shout of my bestie saying "OHHHHHH MAYYYYY GASSHHHHHH. BHIIEEEEEE NAKITA KO YONNNN!!!!!!! 😍 😂😍" And AFc SA SIGAW NYANG yon NAGULAT si guy then let go of me ... Well AFc SINASABIHAN KO si guy NA bitawan AKO KASE it's not right for us ... KASO AYAW Nya UNTILL he heard my bestie shout ...
And right after that time ... Uwian NA KASE end of class NA ... Yung mother NI Rafael NASA lobby waiting for him .. And right after .. Rafael's mother told me " ATE WAG MO TONG SASAGOTIN AHHH ... KASE IKAW NILILIGAWAN NITO .. EHH DI NAG AARAL .. SABI KO SAKANYA NA HINDI PWEDE HANGGANG HINDI SYA NAG TITINO" So AKO Namn SYEMPRE yes Lang ... But right after I said to my self ... " LIKE WHAT THE F*CK IS HAPPENING TO MY LIFE..."
The NEXT DAY .... AFc SASABIHIN KO SA MGA BFFS DIBA😂😆 SYEMPRE PUNTA Kami C.R then doon SASABIHIN yung SINABI NG mom NI guy ... SYEMPRE SILA bestie HIYAW" AHHHHHH OHH MG KAKAKILIG " well me that time I already felt somethings wrong with what his mother told me .. I'm sure aayaw NA si guy ... DAHIL nasabi NA NG mom Nya ..... Right after that day ... I WAS RIGHT OF WHAT I FELT .. RAFAEL DOES NOT TALK TO ME ANYMORE ... HE DOES NOT LOOK AT ME ANYMORE ... Then AKONG si gaga nag Tataka if there's something wrong with me..
Kinabukasan .. Tob and the other boys keeps on saying a name of a girl ( I know the name but I won't tell KASE kawawa 😆😆😂) so AKO nag tataka Kung SINO YUN .. Tinanong KO si JAMES ( not his real name ) also BESTFRIEN of Rafael .. "SINO yun "
James said " 😂😆 yung Girlfriend NI Rafael ... PINAG tritripan namin yung GF NI Rafael " " ahhhh ok..." SABI KO .... So right after that time para AKONG BABALIW NA EWAN .. Sinugatan KO sarili KO ... Then SABI KO "BKT WALANG fountain NA DUGO ... ANAK NG TOKWA .. Bestie !!!! Paduguin NYO NGA yung kamay KO!! "
PUNTA AKO NG C.R ANG lakas NG iyack KO like its my time to die ... I never knew someone was waiting for me that time .... So PAG UWE lock SA room crying and saying "WHY ME!?" " BAKIT AKO PA ANG NAPILI MONG LOKOHIN ... BAKIT MO PINARAMDAM NA MAHAL MO AKO .. PERO MERON NA PALA DYAN SA PUSO MO ... THERE WAS NO SPACE LEFT IN YOUR HEART FOR ME .... BKT MO PINARAMDAM NA MAHALAGA AKO SAYO KUNG WALA NG SPACE DYAN SA LINTEK MONG PUSO!!" ...
Like after that nawalan AKO NG GANA ... And that's the time LIFE hits me ... Life is saying to me NA " TANGA TANGA KA KASE ... PAPANIWALA KA ... BOBO ... DONT EXPECT THAT LOVE KA NYA NG TOTOO NOH.. GAGA" I can hear lots of voice saying I'm dumb I'm stupid... AND RIGHT AFTER THAT ... I BECAME WILD OF BEING A KID ... I BECAME MAD AT ALL BOYS ... BECAUSE BEFORE THIS HAPPENED, THIS ALSO HAPPENED TO MY PARENTS , ME AND MY MOM CAUGHT PAPA CHEATING ON US... RIGHT AFTER THAT .. THE THING THAT COMES UP IN MY MIND THAT ALL BOYS ARE JUST LIKE THEM ... CHEATER , QUITER, AND NOT A FIGHTER.
OF all the years I've been trying to forget what just happened but I just can't ... COZ until now I can't forget him ... My Life was a disaster .... I love music... But what comes up is "PAANO BA MAG MAHAL" by sarah ... I always cry COZ looking back I made a big big big big mistake of life ... From that .. I knew being INLOVE was never the answer to my question "WHY ME?... WHY DID LIFE CHOSE ME TO DO THIS"
