Sunday, February 11th, 2018
2:07 AM
I'm going to skip the story of how we met for now but I have had the same best friend sense I was 3. She's 2 years I oder than me and we have the same birthday. And we moved apart (her to Iowa and me to Texas from Arizona) when I was in 5th grade and she was in 7th.
I mean it's a known fact people get new friends when they move but I constantly feel hurt. She has amazing friends that love and cherish her. I mean I do too but she just has this connection with them.....almost like ours. She constantly talks about them and how great they are and I sometimes do that same but I'm Literally competing with her friend. We joke around about who is better but all of the sudden that bring something up and say " did she tell you that? No. I didn't think so." And sometimes I'll call her really excited about something and we'll be mid conversation and all of the sudden I get to something personal and I ask her if anyone is home to hear AND SHE THAN SAYS THAT SHE HAS LIKE 3 FRIENDS OVER.
I know I sound dramatic but I can't help it. She's all I really have. When I moved everything changed and she was the one thing normal. And she's now 16 and I can't belive it. But she's changing. It was bound to happen eventually. But I didn't think it would hurt this much. We don't really talk and when I text her I never really get a reply. I'm now drowning in my own anxiety and I want to talk to her about it sometimes but she has a life.
We had this plan to move her to my house after she graduated. We even had plans on getting an apartment together. I was so happy to finally not be alone in 2 short years. Then all of the sudden she says she's staying there for college and had talked to her friends about it.... for months. I was just hearing about it and even though it's about a month after she told me my heart is still broken. I'm scared honestly. I mean I love my friends but they will never be as close to me as she is. And I just don't want to be alone
- Katie
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