I’ve got a call from Alex after I realize I love Fabian. After we made love. After I decided to leave him. And it’s all about Zelo.
She told me the whole story – and I cried just thinking how hurt Zelo was. She explained things and I understand it well at tuluyan ko nang iniwan si Fabian.
“It’s the drugs,” the doctor – yung nag-alaga kay Zelo habang naka-rehab siya – said. “Masyadong madami ung drugs na pumasok na sa katawan niya.”
I just stared at him blankly. I am still thinking of Fabian, it’s been 2 days since I left him. Galit kaya siya sakin dahil iniwan ko siya ere? O baka naman inaantay niya ako?
“Pauline,” the doctor said bringing me back to reality. “You’re staring at me, nagwapuhan ka ba masyado sakin?” Tapos tumawa siya sa sarili niyang joke.
“Masakit pa ba?” I asked him out o the blue.
Natigil siya sa pagtawa at nagtatakang tumingin sakin. Bahagya akong napailing. Magaling siya pero mas magaling ako.
“Masakit noh? Yung kailangan mong iwan yung taong mahal mo dahil kailangan ka ng iba,” I added with such sadness in my voice.
Tumawa siya ng pagak. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,”
“You’re fooling yourself,”
He stiffened. You don’t fool me. I know what he’s problem is – I can see it through his eyes. His lonely, he’s hurt – we’re the same. I doubt we don’t share same story but the result are just the same.
“Psychology?” and now he’s voice are weary and lonely.
“No, its obvious – kasi parehas lang tayo,” I honestly said. He heaved a very deep sighed and laughed but didn’t reach his eyes. Tumingin siya sa wrist watch and glanced back at me.
“It’s really that obvious huh?” he said then gave up – acting strong. But I do idolize him, he managed to be professional even if he just want to sulked and cry everyday.
Before I could respond his door was abruptly open. And his secretary appeared.
