Camila/You Songfic

Something's Gotta Give

Camila song Fic

Camila/you

Something's Gotta Give

?One shot?

Rain. A huge torrent of it wrecking the roof and the window pane. When was the last time I heard her voice in person? When was the last time I heard her laugh at my jokes? It seems like ages ago. In truth, yes, 2 years to be exact. Yet, here I am, pitifully listening to one of her songs. This seems very picturesque. I am sitting by the window sill while a thunderstorm roars just outside. Her voice is flowing in the background on repeat. My heart breaks over and over.

Why?

Loving you, I thought I couldn't get no higher
Your November rain could set night on fire, night on fire
But we could only burn so long
Counterfeit emotions only run skin deep
Know you're lying when you're lying next to me, next to me

I ask myself the same question over and over.

What did I do?

How did we get so far gone?
I should know by now, you should know by now
We should know by now

I wrack my brain for all of the mistakes I've made.

Something's gotta give, something's gotta break
But all I do is give and all you do is take
Something's gotta change, but I know that it won't
No reason to stay, is a good reason to go
Is a good reason to go

I've done nothing but Love her.

I did nothing but give my all to her.

I have never heard a silence quite so loud
I walk in the room and you don't make a sound, make a sound
You're good at making me feel small
If it doesn't hurt me, why do I still cry?
If it didn't kill me, then I'm half alive

As I sit here and reflect, I know that I was never enough.

She loved someone else. It was very obvious. I should never have thought otherwise.

How did we get so far gone?
I should know by now, you should know by now
We should know by now

I should have known. She was never really mine. But the pain never faded away.

Something's gotta give, something's gotta break
But all I do is give and all you do is take
Something's gotta change, but I know that it won't
No reason to stay, is a good reason to go
Is a good reason to go

I love her. But her heart wrenching cry is not for me. Her melodious voice coming from my laptop, it isn't calling for me. I should know better. I should be able to move on. I should be stronger than this.

But, how can I be?

I should know by now, you should know by now
I think I'm breaking right now
I should know by now, you should know by now
I think I'm breaking right now

Camila. Your name falls through my lips. It's sweet and tender. Caressing my senses, but, only silence answers me now.

Something's gotta give, something's gotta break
But all I do is give and all you do is take
Something's gotta change, no I know that it won't
No reason to stay, is a good reason to go
Is a good reason to go
Something's gotta give

2 years. I still cannot say goodbye. How can I? You will always be my world and as this rain pours down on my home, so do the tears that cascade down my face.

'I love you' I whisper to the ghosts of the past. They are waving at me through the glass. An outstretched hand that I take lulls me to a much needed slumber. The memories come flooding all at once, then darkness.