Here I sit thinking
Of how he made
Me feel like nothing,
I was nothing.
He didn't care
It made my insides burn.
My insides burn,
Setting my blood to boil,
My life to flames.
My life went up in flames
Slowly the fire spread
Creating more dead space.
Feelings live in dead space,
Hiding behind what's left
A sweet smile hides them.
A smile hides the tears,
The screams, and need
For some one to love me.
I don't love me,
How could I when he doesn't
Flesh and blood, I am his.
Flesh and blood doesn't matter,
But will words
will writing?
Writing should surely
Catch his attention.
It won't, it never does.
Nothing ever does
Oh well, I'll sit there
Tears at the back of my eyes, depressed.
I'm depressed
but it's OK
I'll live.
I'll happily.
Smiling on the outside
Fire still burning inside
Burning inside of me
Not the good kind
But destroying me.
Destroying me slowly
Will it win?
Can I put it out?
Put me out of my misery?
No I can't
So until I find happiness
I'll live to find happiness
I think I have, if not
I'll find it.
