The Distance Between Us (Everyday Movie Contest)

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For once in my life, I didn't feel scared about loving you.
It wasn't that I was naive, or that I was stupid.
No, actually for my age, I was matured beyond my years.
I knew the games.
I knew the stakes.
And for once, the gain would be worth the heartbreak.
With a breath, I delved into the best thing that I ever felt.

My life was a mess.
You knew that.
You heard my cries through my shaken voice, the silence, and the way I tried pushing things off with an awkward laugh.
You saw through the facade I held up for years. You saw me for who I was, and not who I put myself out to be.
You were my safe haven, my home. My countless sleepless nights, and my aggravated mood swings that you handled with such gentleness and tenderness, that you made me believe that maybe, just maybe, I missed out all this time.
Our love.
I'd hear countless times that others wish they had a relationship like ours. And it was true. We got each other completely and utterly. We loved each other as wholely as we possibly could. Sure, we had our fights, but they were nothing compared to our laughter until three am with tears in our eyes and when we finally stopped laughing we felt more love then what we thought was possible.

"I love you."
Was the only reassurance we needed. Because it was so genuine, so true. Our love was prosperous. It brought the most out of us, especially out of our positive traits. I was radiating and everyone around me could see it.

And then, everything changed.
You started disappearing.
No, not just for a couple hours, it was days at a time with you showing up in the middle of the night with no explanation.

We started fighting.
Trust was broken.
Tears and hope shattered.
My gut screamed that you cheated.
I dismissed it.
Why would you? We were in love, you wouldn't do that to me. You were my first. First person I ever completely trusted, loved, cared for, and same in reverse. There's absolutely no way.
We saved our relationship, but here's what I learned:
Even when our relationship was good after our ups and downs, that feeling never went away.
I knew what you did.
And you knew that too.
You did it again.
We took a break.
You treated me like less than a human.
I finally snapped.
I told you to contact me when you can treat me better.
And with that,
You never contacted me again.
I cried for weeks.
I kept trying to contact you
You denied everything from me.
Even for my begging for closure.
You promised you wouldn't leave me.
And now,
your gone.
It's been half a year now,
And I still can't hear your name, without the tremble in my voice, as I keep on the facade, that only you once knew, how to drop.