Have you ever had someone who got away for you have you ever felt love but feel like I didn't love you back well this is what happened we start the beginning of the year 2016 it was Christmas I got an Xbox one I was a PC game before I went to Xbox so I started play little bit games on Xbox not too many but I still playing One thing I would never add any of my friends from school keep hounding me and hounding me to come play with them so I did and I remember one day I got an Xbox and joined one of my friends parties to find out that it there was a guy in the party named jake so I was being nice and talking to him and at first I absolutely hated his guts I thought he was rude I thought he was arrogant so I didn't think this friendship go anywhere until one day when we spoke by ourselves. One thing you should know about me is I can read people very well when I started talking to Jake when I found out that his mum passed away in a car accident when he was younger she died to save him. I got to know a little bit more about him I found out that his dad the little bit of drugs that his stepmother had really bad anxiety they both won't very nice to him so I started helping started giving a lot of advice about Life have to deal with what he was going through I gave him someone how he can look up to as the time went on I started getting really close if anyone needs me I don't like getting close so I pushed him away not too much just a little bit I continued helping him day in and day out Then he made a boy this boy was A bit shy and a Virgin he had no idea so I decided I'd help him to as the relationship progressed I felt like it went down as the relationship was happening I felt sad I don't know why. I didn't know why so I ignored it as months home passed they broke up I continued speaking to Jake and his ex and then one night Jake said that he didn't want to be here any more and that he wanted to die he started cutting this made me so upset. So I spoke to him for hours and hours this happened a couple times but I don't one day he was upset he I was talking to him jakes got this thing where if he can't tell you he will text it so he did it simply said maybe I don't what to be just friends with you I want to be more. That's when it hit me I actually love this kid so I said same and that I loved him to we kinda didn't even talk about that. And I felt him drifting away so I left him I felt him lose he love for me I just let it happen. He ended up dating a couple guys after his previous Ex then went back out with him what I was okay with because I still speak to his ex anyway I love both of them 100% loved more but tried not to show it recently I went over I went to where he lived. When I got there I felt away I haven't felt in awhile but I let it pass hugs I loved it I was happy. Then the night before I had to leave. A little side note something you should know about me I love scars stretchmarks not sexually but like to run my finger over them and he has stretchmarks All over his back so I started playing I felt my hand going between his wife and his pants and I have since had a boyfriend I couldn't do that so I stop. The hardest day of my life was to see his face when I was leaving i'm the person he looked up to the most. I went home Felt sad they broke up so I was helping dealing with that. Let's cut the story short when you love someone and they don't love you back let them go let them do what they want don't hold them back because when you hold someone back that's when They hate you the most yes I did want relationship with him but he was simply not interested I understand in this world there is three different types of love puppy love , Love you have for your friends , love I believe I had love for him but he had friend love. Little side night just because they don't love you doesn't mean you can't stay around you just gotta understand that they don't feel the same yes I wish they did but just doesn't happen like that keep moving don't stop there is always someone else around the corner this is the story about the one who got away.
