Jealously, holy shit no other emotion can internally rip you apart like jealousy.
Knowing he is happy living his live with not a single object bring him a single thought of you to his mind. Yet you can't escape him recklessly running through yours destroying your day to day life. Mad that someone else gets to enjoy his company as much as you once did a few years ago. Your jealously assumes the pretty one is who stole his heart with just one small smile, one no effort smile. It's hard to let go and right as you feel at peace it sneaks up on you. Like when you see a photo of him on a social platform because you can't bring your self to stop following him, to finally cut what strings still are attached to him. Dragging you down a dirt path but you put up with it because that's what jealousy tells you to do. It makes you happy because you remember the good time and then makes you mad because you know that won't ever happen again and sad that someone else is getting that time with him now. So you lay in bed not knowing whether to be mad or start crying because you promised yourself last time you wouldn't wast anymore tears on him. So instead you lay there staring at the ceiling listening to music thinking about everything and nothing until you fall asleep. Just to do it all over again in a few days.
:The girl that once was!
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A Ethan Dolan fan fiction
FanfictionI don't really know know how often I'll be able to update this book but I will finish it. That's a promise!! The Grayson one will be very similar and some of the entries will be the exact same just with the name change other than that please enjoy...
