Fate + pjm

Nightmares

CHAPTER 01

Y/N POV

I was panting heavily with my eyes closed. I gripped on the sheets which covers my bed. Sweats rolling down, tears stream faster. I immediately opened my eyes and sat up straight on my bed.

I have been dreaming about the same dream for 12 years. It all started when i was 5.

I was shutting my eyes trying to ignore what was happening before my eyes. I didn't dare to watch what was occuring. I was hugging my teddy bear tight. It was the only gift that my father gave me.

The scene in front of me was scary , heart breaking and sad, of course. I couldn't understand , why is this happening. Why did i decide to come downstairs.

My mother was shouting, crying, kneeling and begging in front of my father asking for him not to leave the house. He shouts, yelling, asking to let go of him. My mother said the same thing over and over again.

"Please stay! I love you! Why are you doing this to me? To us?!" She kept repeating the same words. She kept on begging.

"Let me go! I said i don't love you, i don't care about you or us!" he shouted. I slowly open my watery eyes and i saw the scene where he kicks her away and slapped her face hard. The tears kept going,flowing like waterfall. He turned to looked at me for a split second and left without saying anything to me.

He slams the door shut. I want to stand up and went to my mother but my legs were weak , my knees betrayed me. They won't cooperate with me. I let my tears roll non stop. I cried along with my mother, there in the small room.

She crawls towards me and hugged me. We cried our lungs out that whole night. The scariest moment in my life haunts me through my dreams.

After that day, i told my self that 'True Love' never exist. It was only a sweet dream, happy ending from the fairy tales story books. Unfortunately , i live in the reality. I stepped on the real grass, i stand under the real skies. I experience the real things. Nothing was a dream, nightmares or fairy tales. I can't turning my head to the happy moments in my life back then. I can't turn the pages back to page 1. I can't control the time to reversed the moments when i was born. I can't stepped back and run cowardly towards the past. There's only one thing that i could do. Not just me but every human being can too is to move and live on.

I squeezed my eyes and laid back on the bed, staring onto the ceiling. I blink my eyes few times before i realise i can't sleep. I sighed and got up from my bed. I looked at the time and it reads 0420 am. It was bloody early for normal human to wake up. I went towards the bathroom and let myself having a warm shower before wearing my school uniforms.

This was normal for me as it occurs many times. I would sometimes woke up in the middle of the night and have to stay up until 5 am. Usually, i would woke up on 4 am. I haven't get enough sleeps after then. I would always yawn in the class, sleep in the bus, nap in the library. Of course not for too long. My nap would take 5-10 minutes only.

I went downstairs after i was done tying up my hair, high pony style. I looked around and as always my mother haven't woke up yet. I went towards the kitchen stove and started to make breakfast for us. I live alone with my mother after that jerk left us. It took a very long due for us to move on and live only the both of us. Also, i started to hate males. I became cold towards them, i act rude only in front of them. I don't care what they say about me. It never was my intentions to make them like me. I wanted them to stay away from me.

I walked down the streets while listening to some music through the earphones that i bought for myself long time ago. Surprisingly, it's still working like any other earphone would work. Means, it works very well. It was still early and the school gate hasn't open yet at this hour. It was currently 520 am. I always leave the house early because i wanted to have alone time.

I went to my usual place where i would spend my time before 7 am. I went towards the bankrupt amusement park. It was restricted area but no one cares anyways. I jumped over the rusty fence and started to walked towards a small box with many switches in it. The switches connects all the lights. I pulled the liver up and all the lights were on. I walked towards the old ferris wheel and climbed up until the top cart.

When the first time i went here , i was scared to climbed the ferris wheel until the top but i encourage myself and i done it all time until i was used to the height.

I sat there enjoying the view of the sunrise. I always envied the sun. It's job was only rising, and setting. Light up the world until the moon rises to replace him for 12 hours. And repeated every day. They have nothing to worry about.

I sat there enjoyed the heat as it began to touched my revealed skin. I climbed down the ferris wheel carefully, trying to not miss any steps or i'll fall hard and broke my bones or die possibly.

I walked towards school and at the same time, the needle strikes 7. I continue my step and stopped at my locker. Getting the necessary things out and walks back into my first class, Chemistry.

I never like it. Everything involves science. I just don't like them and no one could force me to like them. That's what i thought before i met an annoying guy.

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So , this is my first short fanfic! If you guys don't know what that is, let me explain

Its a fanfic with a short chapter or short amount of words. But that was my opinion. For you guys? I don't know.

Sorry for the errors , broken here , broken there and typos.

Adios~♡

*Let's change the outro bids a bit ;)*