The Problem With Love (Jaegan) COMPLETE

chapter 1

Justin's pov
"Jess! Get your ass down here!" the woman that birthed me yelled. I hate that she calls me by the name i used to go by. she's the only person who calls me by my pre transition name. and it sure does suck

"Coming." i get out through the lump in my throat. i head down stairs and into the living room where i see Reagan Beast. The guy who's in love with me.

"What do you want, Raegan?" i ask obviously annoyed. "I mean you obviously but right now we need to work on our project." he tells me. i nod and turn around to go back upstairs.

I open my door and walk in, sitting on my bed. "So this is math?" i ask oblivious. "No....social studies.." he replies. i nod and get out my books. i reach a little bit and my sleeve goes up a bit. Raegan grabs my arm and brings it to his face. i wince in pain.

he pulls my sleeve up and stares in shock. "Justin..." he says with tears in is eyes. "What!?" i snap and pull my arm away, pulling my sleeve down.

I look at the ground with tears in my eyes as Raegan tries to talk to me but it all sounds muffled. "Justin...why would you hurt yourself like that..?" i barley hear from him.

i suddenly jerk my head up and look at him. i wrap myself around him and cry into his chest. he slowly rubs my back and whispers into my ear. "it's okay..you're fine...i'm here.." he says while shushing me.

i calm down surprisingly quickly. i mean he has always calmed me down quickly but this was...different. i pull away from him and look him in the eyes. i get off and sit on my bed. "i-i'm sorry i-i don't know what th-that was.." i say to Raegan. i can feel a panic attack coming on and i start breathing heavy.

"woah hey! hey Justin?" i hear him say before i'm pulled into his lap. he calms me down just like last time but it took a little bit longer than before.

i sit on my bed after pulling away from him. we just sit there for a while when i hear footsteps climbing the stairs. i immediately get away from my bed and run to my desk.

"Jess? Is that boy still in there with you? you better not be having sex!" My "mom" yells through the door. "yes he's in here and no we are not having sex!! you've seen him so many times here before!" i yell. "ok whatever." she says and walks back down.

"She STILL calls you by your birth name?" Raegan asks me. "yes.." i say lowly. "that's horrible." he says in disgust. i nod and look down. he grabs my face and wipes the tears that i didn't know fell.

i push him away and run into the bathroom. this is basically my safe place. i start crying even harder because i see previous blood stains on the floor.

i hear little knocks on the door and i just ignore them. "go aw-away..." i say through my tears. i hear him say no. and then he comes in and i remember that i didn't lock it. he sits in front of me and starts rubbing my knee.

my brother walks in and looks at me, then to Raegan, then to me again. "what's he doing here?" Danny asks me. "school pr-project.." i say. "i think it's time for you to go Raegan." dan says. "what, why?" Raegan asks. "didn't you cause this?" dan asks. "um no." he says. "who did!?" dan yells getting mad. "That horrible woman did!" i yell.

i push Raegan and Danny out of my way as i walk to my bedroom. Raegan grabs his stuff and turns to me. "i love you justin." he says. i don't reply because i don't love him and i don't want to get his hopes up. so he leaves and i hear the front door slam.

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