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Hewwo fellow readers :) in this book that I've written, it's easy to see that all of the main characters have a very strong bond. Now I try not to post too many things that aren't chapters especially because a lot of people don't read them, but I find this important and hope that I can let you guys see how important it is as well.

Calum, Luke, Ashton, Michael, and Kat are such good friends in this book and Luke, Ash, and Michael were the only people that didn't leave Kat when she suddenly wasn't 'perfect' anymore.

The definition of perfect is to be skinny, beautiful, flawless, and popular. At least, that's what I thought. Last year in my school, I was one of the most popular girls. I was the one that hung out with bully's, complained about herself, thought I was better than others, and stayed silent instead of saying when I thought my so called 'friends' were doing something wrong, or something that would hurt them in the long run.

But there was so much drama, tears, hurt, and fake friendships when I was there.

Now, I know that all of those people are also human, and are using what they have to keep themselves safe, so they built a whole fake popular person world that makes them think that these are the things that will make them happy.

I was broken out of that fake world and am still trying to fix myself, trying to find friends that really care about me and understand me, and so far I've found a few. But I want you all to know that trust me, I know how hard it is. I went through all the emotions you have. There were moments when I called myself fat and ugly, moments even I bullied others and didn't even realize it, I stayed silent instead of speaking up, and was a follower instead of a leader. And I regret all of those moments so much. Those moments were terrible and developed my thoughts now, the ones that make me think that I'm crazy, weird, and not normal. I always joke about loving it, and of course I do in moments, but I think we all have our moments when we're alone, away from society, and thoughts dig their way into your brain that are not healthy. Some of you have only had it once, others have it every day. I'm not going to go into detail about myself, because I don't want my real life friends to worry about me of course, but I know it hurts and I'm encouraging you all to break out of your comfort zone and be who you really are.

One of the reasons I used Luke, Ashton, Calum, and Michael was because in real life also, I'm a huge fan of 5 Seconds of Summer. I see them and their strong friendship. I see them always caring and taking care of each other, having fun, and doing what they love together. And it makes me so happy to see that they have made it through so much torment and stuck by each other's sides through it all.

Even the fake friends that I broke off from last year still have their moments where they need someone to talk to, and no matter how fake or rude they were, I always still try my best to help them through it because they are human and nobody deserves to be alone.

So if you have any friends that you notice have always cared about you more than others, say thank you, and make sure you are there for them as much as they are for you.

Be careful who you trust, because the sad truth is that there are many people out there right now in today's society that are terrible, but there are also the few that are amazing and too good for this world.

I wish you all luck in this world and just know that, even if you don't know me, I'm ALWAYS here to talk if you have no one.

I know from personal experience how it feels when you have nobody to talk to and completely open up to, so I want to be there for all of you.

Thanks for reading if you did ❤️ love you all,

Ella <3