Love and Lies: Her Side of the Story

CHAPTER XIII (CONTROL)

I was advised to rest until the swelling deisappears kaya naman during the weekends nakatengga ako sa kama ko, walang ibang ginawa kundi umupo o humiga, nakakatayo at lakad lang ako tuwing pupunta ako ng banyo para maligo at iba pa.

Medyo nag-overreact sina kuya Harry and Brenan dahil sa nangyari sa paa ko. Dinaig ko pa ang nalumpo.

The only good thing about what happened to me is that Serge visited me a lot, for some reason he's very concerned about what happened to me. And believe me, I've yelled at myself a hundred times during the weekends. Wag ka magbigay ng malisya, wag ka mag-assume, wag kang bibigay! Paulit-ulit.

He's in love with someone, sya na mismo nagsabi. It could be anyone, it could be some girl from their class, someone from his neighborhood, some girl in school, or maybe me!

I laughed at the thought.

He wouldn't like me, never!

My chest tightened at the thought.

I smiled bitterly.

Kahit anong ipasok ko sa isip ko, ang ending hindi pwede, masakit, masasaktan lang ako.

I laid on my bed as I reminisced how my weekend went by.

I remember how I woke up to his scent. He was sitting on the chair next to my bed writing something. Nung napansin nyang gising ako, agad-agad nyang niligpit yung sinusulat nya kanina at ngumiti sa akin.

"Hey Rin-Rin!" he cheerfully said.

I smiled. Pero deep inside, naiirita ako at how much my heartbeat raced. Talo ko pa yung tumakbo sa marathon!

"How are you feeling? Okay ka na ba?" he asked as he leaned forward and rested his face on his left hand.

I nodded.

Agad nya namang inilapat yung kamay nya sa noo ko na ikinabigla ko. Naramdaman ko ang unti-unting pag-init ng pisngi ko. I'm not supposed to blush! I thought hoping I'd make my body follow what I'm trying to tell it to do. Stop blushing!

"Wala ka namang lagnat...then why are you very quiet?! Nauuhaw ka ba?" he asked gently.

Tumango naman ako ulit at pinanood syang kumuha ng baso mula sa mesa ko at nagsalin ng tubig from a small pitcher. Dun ko lang napansin yung tray na nasa right side nya.

Breakfast in bed?! Stop!!!!!

Napakunot yung noo ko but I tried not to let him notice.

Why is he doing all these! He should stop, what if the girl he likes end up kowing about all this?! Sa halip na magustuhan sya nung babae baka pagselosan pa ako!

But that would give me another opportunity to det him, to make me like me too.

Nalungkot ako sa naisip ko. This is not right; I shouldn't be this obsessed. I remembered a quote from one of the books I have read before. Love is when you find happiness with just the thought of the person you love being happy even if it's not with you.

I drank the glass of water he gave me and then forced a smile as I faced him.

"Gutom rin yata ako." I said as a fake giggle escaped from my lips.

"Aishh! I know that, little Rin-Rin..." he began. Little Rin-Rin. "...kaya nga andito na yung breakfast mo eh!" he added.

Kumirot yung dibdib ko.

He does see me as nothing more than a little sister.

Apparently, he was at our house to do a project with Kuya Harry and Kuya Bren who are is groupmates as of course to help take care of me. After taking away the tray with the dirty dishes downstairs, Serge did'nt came back again until it was already lunch time.

Tulad ng ginawa ko nung umaga, I just ate and tried so hard to finish my meal fast para makababa na sya ulit. I cannot stand being with him for too long. The thought of him just doing things because he has to instead of him wanting to do it voluntarily hurt me.

And knowing that he likes someone else hurts me even more.

After he took away the lunch tray, I grabbed my laptop from my desk and immediately opened two tabs. One for YouTube and another for Facebook.

I was surprised to see how many notifications were there when I saw my Facebook account. I mean, I haven't opened it in a while so there's no surprise in seeing that many friend requests and notifications.

I was scrolling down the list of people who sent me a friend request. Most of them were my classmates which didn't make sense dahil I've never been close to any of them to the point where they should be adding me on Facebook. I declined their friend requests. They're not my friends.

As I was continuing with my decling shenanigans, a named made me pause.

He looked very handsome with that boyish smile. The same boyish smile that kept on making my heart beat like crazy and kept me up at night. The same amile I wished to be for me, the same smile I wish to wake up to every single day. It was Serge.

I smiled and accepted his friend request. Being friends with him on Facebook shouldn't cause any harm, should it?

Suddenly, a chatbox popped up. My breathing was interrupted and my heart seemed to have halted beating.

It was Serge.

"Hey, you should be resting!" he said along with an angry face. I knew he was just fooling around.

"It's not like I'm walking around or doing jumping jacks when I'm using my laptop" I replied. No periods, no smiley faces, no nothing.

"Tsk, tsk, tsk. You really are hardheaded, aren't you?" he replied, I smiled.

"Well, I'm sure you already knew than from the moment you knew me" I said.

I saw the indication that he has already seen my message but it has already been five minutes and he hasn't replied yet.

My brows furrowed and my impatience got the best of me.

I began typing.

For a couple of minutes, all I did was type and then delete words. Every sentence I've come up with seemed irrelevant and unnecessary. I didn't want to look so clingy or too obvious. He can't find out!

My agony was replaced by excitement and nervousness when I noticed that he had already replied.

"Sorry, I had to discuss things with your brothers. Anyways, do want anything? Dessert, snacks? I'll be going out for a bit to meet someone. Baka may gusto kang pasalubong." he said.

My heart sank. He's leaving?

Well, duh, he doesn't live here for goodness' sake! I thought as I contradicted the feeling of dismay that slowly lurked deep in me.

"A slice of chocolate cake will do." I replied.

"Okay, laters!" he said and then logged out.

A few moments later, I heard the sound of his motorcycle.

He left.

I felt the sad and tightening pit in my gut, and I knew very well what it meant. I was unhappy seeing him leaving. He's just going to buy stuff for goodness' sake!

And right then and there, I knew what was going on. Unconsciously, I let myself fall for him deeper. And I knew just how to get a grip out of all this. What I needed. Control.

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