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Let Me Go: Seung-gil Lee x Reader

    Artist:Hailee Steinfield , Alesso 

    "I've been hoping somebody loves you in the ways I couldn't. Somebody's taking care of all of the mess I've made. Someone you don't have to change, I've been hoping. Someone will love you, let me go"

    (Part 2 of "11:11")

Seung-gil's POV

There I was, standing across the aisle, waiting for an angel to come through the door. Today was a good day, I could feel it in my bones. Of all the days that I have woken up to and lived by, this was by far the best day of my life. This was the day that I was going to see her, I knew she was going to be beautiful on this day, more beautiful than all other days. I could feel a smile creep upon my stoic face. My heart was thumping harder each passing second, who knew one person could actually make me feel this way, make me feel more human. My mind was floating around the universe as I begin to remember what happened on that certain day... The day I met (Y/N) once more.

Flash back


"Hey, Seung-gil" (Y/N) said with a bitter-sweet smile on her face. I could feel the hesitation in her voice as she greeted me. How long has it been when we last saw each other? Months? maybe even years. I couldn't remember, but seeing (Y/N) for such time, I felt... Sad.

I knew I had my faults towards her, I knew I was the reason for that bitter-sweet smile, and somehow, it felt awful. In all honesty, I couldn't care less on what other people feel. But right now, I felt like a total jackass.


I just stood there, taking in every feature of (Y/N), nothing changed, except maybe her heart, and that was my fault. I noticed that she wasn't looking at me anymore, but rather at my lower torso. I soon followed where her gaze was and memories of the past began to fill my head.


I was wearing the sweater she gave during my championships. I had no idea why I decided to wear this, but it felt right every time it was on me, I would be lying if I said I didn't love this sweater. It has a husky print on it so that's another reason.

After the long-awkward silence, I decided to speak. "How are you?"

"I've been good. And you?"

"Likewise." I responded bluntly.

"I like your sweater." (Y/N) commented.

"And I should thank you for giving me this sweater." I replied.

"You already have."

"Oh." 

(Y/N) started to giggle. Our conversation was plain, but yet she enjoys it. She was the only one who enjoyed taking to me even though my responses would just be one word, or just movements of my body. That was one thing I loved about (Y/N). But I knew I wasn't good for her, stupid and cliché as it sounds, I just don't feel suited for her. I ended ties between us because I thought she was the wrong one, I couldn't accept the fact that I no longer loved her, and I let out all of my frustrations and anger towards (Y/N).


"Why?" (Y/N) suddenly asked out of the blue.

"Why what?"

"Why... Why didn't things work out between us?" (Y/N) questioned, her voice shaking.

"Things don't go as planned, (Y/N). You just got to accept that-"

"That you left me without ever explaining to me why!?" I was cut off by her response. I could see tears forming in her eyes. It's true though, I never explained why I left, I just told her that she was wrong and that's it. I thought that she got the message but it turned out to be the opposite. My words were vague back then, even I myself couldn't understand why I said that. Time passed and that's when I realized the reason. She was no longer in my heart to keep.


"(Y/N), as much as I don't want to hurt you, things just happened. It wasn't meant to be, you and I both know that."

"Maybe you did, but I didn't. I had hope that the both of us could fix things up, but no. You decided to leave me hanging."

"This is reality, in a world we live in, shit happens. Not everyone gets a happy ending."

"But everyone deserves an explaination and a reason, Seung-gil." (Y/N) said, anger was now present in her voice. I was never good with feelings so I didn't how to react towards her at the moment. I was hurting her once again. And she didn't deserve it.


"We could've worked things out, Seung-gil. We could've talked about the problem, when you love someone you just don't give up on them easily, no matter how hard things get." (Y/N) said between her sobs.

Love. That was a foreign word and feeling to me. I somehow had no idea how to handle such thing to the point I snapped. The feeling was so overwhelming that I panicked. This... This was another reason why I ended things, because I know one day, (Y/N) will look back and think she could've done better. With that in my mind, it was another good enough reason to break the bond we once had.


"You put me in so much pain, but I still chose to love you, because deep in my heart I know that we could work things out, I know I can be a little bit much, but that was because I wanted to show you how much I loved you, Seung-gil. I wanted you to feel important. So no matter the amount of pain you gave me that day, I can't help but still love you."


"Then that's your mistake." I spat back. (Y/N)'s eyes widened in shock towards my answer. I could feel the hurt that she was feeling. I didn't deserve it. Everything she's done for me, I appreciated them, but I didn't know how to return the favor. Returning the love is the best possible choice, but how could I? It difficult for me, (Y/N) knows it but yet she still chose me. I should consider myself lucky, but what about (Y/N)? can she ever consider herself lucky to be with someone who can't even give a teensy bit of love that she deserves. She had to let me go, before everything starts to get worse, before I regret anything, before I change my mind. No longer wanting to see (Y/N), I turned back and decided to walk away so I wouldn't have to witness a person with such a good heart be hurt.


As I was beginning to take my steps, I felt a pair of arms wrap around me, and warm tears staining my back.


"Seung-gil... please... I love you..." (Y/N) began to speak and the same time cry. I hated it. I hated it when she cries, but do I have any right to blame her? This is my fault, and I know it. This was the most horrid feeling that I could have ever felt.

Something shiny caught my attention, I looked down and saw that (Y/N), was grasping my silver medal around her hand. After all this time... (Y/N)...

I just stood there like a statue, her hugged tighten not wanting to let go. And from that, my heart felt something weird. I didn't like it, I somehow knew that deep down I did love (Y/N). From every moment we spent together, I enjoyed them. Even if I was a stoic- expressionless bastard, she still loved me for me. I didn't want this feeling to come back, but it did, and damn it all I didn't want her to let go.


I wanted her to stay, I wanted to be with (Y/N), once more. And with that I decided...


I took her hands off me slowly, and turned to face (Y/N). I stared at her now tainted face with tears, her eyes were red and puffy. I knew I had to do this, I love her... I love her... I love her... This was my last chance.

I cupped her face with both of my hands as I let myself get lost of the doors towards her soul.


"(Y/N)... I-"




My thoughts were caught off as I heard the door open, and everyone rising up from their seats. I saw a silhouette of an angel. I thought to myself that this was the best sight my eyes had ever laid on, as she was walking down the aisle, my mind was blank. I couldn't think, I was nervous seeing (Y/N) come this way, she was smiling with each step she took, the smile that had thaw my once cold heart. As she came closer, my sweat turned cold. I was that nervous. I was just in awe on how she looked, I knew then on, I had fallen harder for her.



She was almost at the end of the aisle, she was giving me the nerve-wrecking feeling in my gut. I remember the love she gave me, no matter how much I felt I didn't deserve it, she still gave all she had to give. The happiness she brings to me, and most warm hugs that I craved.


She passed my way, and paused for a bit. She smiled towards me, a smile that made me remember the day that she herself made me smile. I rarely smiled, but with her, my smile was pure and genuine. I love her, it hurts me so much. I love you, (Y/N).


But I knew... that smile was no longer for me, how do I know? I already knew from the moment she passed by me and took the hand of her husband-to-be. I didn't understand why it wasn't me she was marrying, but then the painful and unwanted memories started to hit my mind.

Flash Back


"(Y/N)... I... I no longer love you." I said to her, I knew that was the wrong answer, but I could no longer be selfish. I had to let her go and she the same with me. If we both stayed the way we are, it would be unhealthy. I wanted to take those words back, but this was for the best. If I couldn't change, then maybe she could be with someone who can mend her broken heart.


More tears started to form on (Y/N)'s heart, and I felt entirely guilty, and I should. I knew that one day I was going to regret my answer, but I would've regretted it more if she weren't happy.

"Seung-gil..."


"I'm sorry..." I softly said, and kissed (Y/N) on the forehead, as an apology for everything I've done up to now, and as a good bye to all the memories we've made, and pains that I've caused.

"Good bye, (Y/N)." and with a heavy heart, I started to walk away. I could hear her crying from behind, I caused you so much pain, but yet you chose to love me. I couldn't ask for anything better than for a person to love me for me. But if you were to still stay with me, I knew that happiness was too far from our reach. And no longer containing my feelings, I let my warm tears roll down my cheeks.

Seeing (Y/N) being with a person that could make her feel loved, was making me both happy and sad. I knew that this was my karma for making (Y/N) go through so much pain, and if her smile was letting me know that she finally found someone deserving, I'm okay with it. I deserved it.


For every piece of her heart that I broke, it was finally going to be mended.


For every tear that I made her cry out, was now going to be full of laughter.


For every pain that I let her go through, was now going to be replaced with love and joy.




It hurts me. It hurts me knowing that I could've changed myself, but now I was too late. But at least now (Y/N) is finally with someone that can make her smile. Someone she didn't need to change, someone who deserved her ever loving heart.



I am not certain that there would be anyone like (Y/N) to enter my life again.



But I'm sure of one thing.


That she finally let me go.

She's happy.

and that I truly did love her.

I love you, (Y/N)... 

-FIN-