erotic [ h.s ]

That wasnt very Versace of you

ok so the last couple of chapters have been at ease but from here on out the story is really going to kick in except this chapter it just something light , funny but deep at the same time .

- Jessy

Harry was the devil 'cause he made me want to sin and every time he knocked , I couldnt help but let him in .

His fingers tickle my spine , as keen teeth scrape against my neck , sweet lips whispering profanity into my ear . I start to become undone under his mercy .

My heart beating 100 per minute , at least . Parting lips and moving hips . It was him I wanted and he knew I was his for the taking . 

And I knew things didnt last forever , nothing at all but , I think this crush developing for Harry was going to last a lifetime .

" Wait " I pull away from is addictive lips , trying to find my breath " How do you know when its over ?".

" W-what ? What are you talking about ? " He hesitant , as he dragged the words out , in the way I loved 

" When you love someone but you arent really together " I dont want to say his name because it creates butterflies in my stomach but lately ..... Donnie was distance , even with him being up here in New York with me , he hardly called or tired to make any plans with me . He use to call me everyday and text me non stop and here I was waiting on him like a blood thirsty dog . I didnt care for it at all .

" Uhm... Maybe when you feel more inlove with the memories then the person standing infront of you ..".

I cant help my self the name is coming up like word vomit , " Donnie and I-"

" Tucker , put a f*cking fight up for what you love." Veins pulse from his neck as his voice escalated . I dont like this side of him ... it scares me .

" I'm s-sorry , I didnt mean to make you mad " I trip over my words like loose shoe laces , he's just making me loose myself in his darken eyes blossoming with purified devoted range .

" N-no .... " Harry's voice softens , his body still tense . His hands falter to my shoulders , targeting me in the eyes . I know he feels me shaking and I cant help myself , I try to control it but the more I try the more he cant bare to look me in the eyes " You don't have to me scared ... I'm never going to hit you .... I just dont want you to give up because of this moment right now , it's nothing but pure anxious-ness. And i'm going to be honest with you , taking your virginity wouldnt mean as much as it would to me then you . Sure , I can make you feel good for about an hour but after you cum ,  while your just laying there on your back it's going to creep in your mind slowly then all at once . The sin you just purged . How you have to look your pastor in the face and go before your god and admit what you've just done and explain how bad you feel but you know you've never experienced something that felt so amazing in your life . And i'll make you feel like just another slut that I just got lucky with." A heavy breath taken in by his weary lungs " If Donnie makes you truly happy , even without the sex , you need to stick by him . Sometimes you have to get what you need not what you want ".

" Ok ".

I know I looked Harry in his eyes and lied , it wasnt okay . Nothing was okay .

I was scared . Me and Donnie were drifting . He made no effort and neither did I . Faith was just ripping us apart like the gravel on this earth and the worst part ... I couldnt do anything about it because I didnt want to .

It was weird how feelings changed . How someone I once thought I would die without I could now just simply not really thinking about for days on out . I didnt think such strong emotions could stop , but they did and I wasnt sad , I wasnt mad , I wasnt anything . I just didnt care , I guess .