my life

I was born in Winnipeg Manitoba. November 7th 1997. I have a beautiful mother 2 brothers and 1 sister. My dad never really showed up in my life

I was a tomboy

I liked videogames more than Barbies

In grade 6 I was never friends with anyone my age Ive always hung out with

younger kids

I was an outcast

Bullied ever since I can remember

But I always thought to myself

I don't hate my bullies

They probably have problems of their own

I think they were angry because I was always happy

There were days I would come home with bruises and scars

I would never fight back

But still why were they doing it

I don't know

My family made me happy

I would visit my grandma and my uncle's every weekend

And the dinners were amazing

I would actually go to the beach with my dad!

And picnics with my mom brothers and sister

I loved it!

But then that day happened

My mom fell on the floor

Hands covering her crying face

I think I was about 12

My uncle died from cancer that day

My mom was starting to get depressed everyone was!

And my dad couldn't take it

He walked out on us

And the family fell apart

I fell under a deep depression

I never cut myself or tried suicide

But I was always sad

Always feeling alone

My sister couldn't take it!

She stole some of my uncle's money from his will.

And ran off with it.

Nobodys seen her since

My older brother moved in with his girlfriend

My younger brother does drugs and tried to kill himself a few times and acts up

I think just to get my dad's attention

Grade 10 started

I was still friends with my younger group

And I also made real geeky friends

But they were true friends

Then these girls comes up to me

They were very beautiful

One asked if I wanted to hang out

I said yes

They was really fun

I've been friends with them for a year

And they stopped my bullying

But I didn't realize I was moving far away from my old friends

Friends ment every thing to me then

My family never came around anymore

So they became my family

But my Mom meet someone new

And wanted to move to Alberta

We move there

A small town

Every one new eachother

I was the girl in the back

Silent and alone

My grades dropped

Every day I would hind under my covers

Wishing my life was back the way it used to be!

We moved back to Winnipeg

My friends greeted me with great smiles

But there was a fight

Those beautiful girls weren't friends anymore

And I Bearly see them now

My mom was looking for a job

But nobody would take her

So we moved to birdshill

I'm there till this day

Going to an off campus trying to catch up

My family still don't talk to me

4 years past since I saw my sister

My dad I rarely see

The friends I used to have

And the strangers that I know now

But thats me 16 years old girl

Writing a story about my life

Silent and alone

There's many things I wish I could do better

Things i wish was the same

I miss my sister

My dad!

My friends

My family

My uncle :'(

My old life

I miss me!

I made this story not for you to feel sorry or sad!

please don't be sad

even though I cry

I am still here

strong as ever

Ive cried so much

that it's getting hard to cry any more

and eyes are dry

but my heart is still beating

there's people with even sadder storys

maybe even you

but listen, life gets hard

it may not always get better

but you start forgetting

you start getting used to the pain

and you get used to the new you

I love you so much

thanks for reading this

I hope this helps through some pain

hinden behind your heart <\3

:* thank you :)

be strong!!