Justin's POV-
The time has come.
it's me and decisions i never thought i'd have to make.
Should i pull the trigger? take the pain away until it will grow stronger? should I make it end? my mind is going crazy.
I just don't know what to do, what to think.
I can't do this anymore
I'm lost. I'm fucking lost..
5 months earlier
"Hey mum! i'm off out now don't wait for me with tea i'll be back tomorrow!"
"Alright hunny be careful, love you"
i threw my backpack on my back and opened the door before closing it
"I will mum, don't forget to lock the doors. I love you too" I said with a rush.
"Hurry the fuck up jay" han shouted from his new lamborghini he just pull up near my house.
Lu ge, known as Han my main man. He's my bestfriend since birth. He's family is chinese but he was born and raised here. I'm glad i have him. Me and him keep it clean when it comes to business. None has balls to come our way. He's twenty only two years older than me but when it comes to thinking the plan out it's my opportunity.
His ass can be annoying some times.
"I fucking told you to wait you dickhead" i jumped into the passengers seat
"Don't forget your belt, we don't want things to repeat from the past. don't we?" he said with a smirk.
"fuck off" i spat and he just let out a quiet laugh.
clinched my jaw, looked at him with anger.
"okay, okay let's go before you will get anymore angry" he said and turned the engine on, travelled to the no other place but the "Dark Horse" club down town in city of New York. the club full of sweat on the dance floor, hungry for sex men and wasted pretty girls. Everyday there's new ones to look after at the club. The way they move their asses and them hips. fuck.
"We're here" i said excited. We got out, loud energetic music blasted at the club is banging through my ears. i live for music. it makes me wanna do crazy stuff.
Walked threw the wild souls I got to the bar. Sat down to think about my thoughts about her.
"What do you want sir?" barman said politely.
"One shot of tequila would be good" i answered.
I was about to drink my shot but then this girl sat right next to me. Blonde hair, brown eyes and that pretty face. She looks really spoiled, i'm not sure about this. She glared at me so i did the same. I don't think i have ever seen her in this club. Me and Han always come here and we know most the people here..but her. I have never see someone like her. She looks different. i like it. i like her.
She tured her attention to the barman. "one shot of tequilla please..or maybe two" then she took her purse and took her money out and gave it to the bar man. "You can keep the change".
"Anything else?" he asked her but she just replied with a plain no.
I grabbed the glass and drank the tequilla shot in one attempt. When i placed the glass on the table i could feel someones eyes on me. it was her. When i looked back at her, brown eyes of hers went back on the barman. "Hey what's your problem?" i asked annoyed but she didn't look at me.
After a while she drank two shots of teqilla and turned to me. "i'm sorry was you talking to me?" she asked with a cocky smirk.
"No, to a fucking idiot actually" i replied, she looked at me like she was about to murder someone. She looks so cute like this. Actually really cute.
Haileys's POV
"Are you sure I look good in this Ari? I don't want to look like a total idiot" I asked unsure while looking directly at the mirror infront of me.
"No girl, you look hot. Would i ever lie to you? No, now let's go" Ari said with a smile.
"Okay if you say so. I believe you. You coming guys?" I stood at the door waiting for Ari and her boyfriend Jason.
"Yessss, give us one minute" Ari said then next minute she came back with her boyfriend. He really is a good guy for her. He's a good friend to me. I am glad they found each other that day. He makes her happy to fuck. And he's attractive like hell too. She's lucky.
"Ladies first" Jason opened the door for me and Ari. We linked our arms together and jumped in Jason's car.
Twenty minutes later
"Guys we're here" i said then we got out. This place looks amazing. I'm impressed. Really impressed.
"You go in Hails we will meet you inside, Jason just needs to find a good place to park" ari said.
"Alright girl, see you" i walked towards the club. This is crazy. The minute i got closer and closer i noticed for freaking much people are in this club, outside and all over the main road.
"I CAN do this" i repeated to myself in my head.
Pushing throught the wild crowd of wasted groups of people i walked straight to get something to drink but then. "AGHHHH" someone pushed me and i lost control so i fell on my ass. Ouch. Okay i'm nearly there. I stood up and i noticed that i made it. i don't know how but i did it. The bar doesn't look this crowded. Then someone pulled me by my hips.
What the fuck.
