Demons

Not Like Him

"I was born this way, I don't know what life is supposed to be like because all I've ever known was this way of life."
I was in yet another therapy session. I don't know what the sisters are thinking they know I'm fine, don't they know that? Of course they do, but I guess they need to follow some sort of protocol in order to give me some form of treatment.
They know they can only get out a few words out of me before I shut down wrote down a few words into his notebook thanked me for my time and dismissed me back into my room. I picked up my teddy bear from beside me jumped down from the brown leather couch I had been sitting on for the passed twenty minutes and walked out down stairs back into the waiting room. Sister Qwen was waiting for me in a comfy looking waiting chair near the entrance of the office. The windows glistened with light off of her glasses. She was the youngest sister in the orphanage about twenty three years of age. She had ash blonde hair and stormy gray eyes unlike most of the nuns she was the most approachable. She was also my personal caretaker and was in charge of taking me to and back from my appointments.
"Hey how did it go?" She asked with a beaming smile.
As always I was silent I don't like to talk about it because there's nothing to talk about therapy isn't going to make him go away. She was awaiting patiently for my response until she eventually conceded to my silence.
"Alright, alright I won't force you. Come on lets go home."
She took my hand and walked me back to the car. We weren't parked that far maybe about fifteen feet from the doctor's office. I finally spotted the car not bad right? I told Sister Qwen I was old enough to remember what the car looked like. It was a navy blue van with a golden cross on the side of it with the orhanage's name on it.
She opened the back and lifted me into the car. Once my feet were placed back onto the ground I ran over to and climbed into my chair. I placed my teddy bear on my lap and waited for the car to start.
"Seat belts."
"Yes, Sister Qwen."
I buckled my seatbelt and made sure it was also over my teddy bear. He doesn't have a name. I thought about naming him once but it just didn't feel right. I mean lets face it he looks like a Rick but I'm not ready to be alone yet. I still need him.
I went into the cup holder and pulled out a copy of The Road and searched for my bookmark. Darn it, it fell out. I guess I have to start over. I flipped the pages back to the beginning of the novel. This is the third time I lost the bookmark I've reread the beginning a total of four times. The first time I had to reread it was justified because I was to young to understand what was happening. I'm older now I can understand what's happening. I can appreciate the beauty in destruction.
"What'cha got there?"
"The Road."
"The Road? Heavens I remember that one! Why on Earth are you reading that of all things? Do you know how depressing that story is?"
I find it soothing, she finds it depressing. I suppose that means it's depressing. The peace I find within this story is wrong once again my emotions are wrong.
The rest of the ride back to the orphanage was silent. Once we arrived Sister Qwen opened the door for me and I walked over to the back of the now opened car door and jumped onto the concrete ground. I have two homes. On really bad days I have to sleep in the brain hospital. It's where the therapy sessions take place but on days like today where everything is calm I get to go home. The only home I have ever truly known. I still can't read the name on the sign of the orphanage otherwise I would call it something other than the orphanage. I could always ask somebody but I don't want them to make fun of me. I walked inside the big metal swinging doors. All the way up to my room. The other kids have to share but the sisters tell me I'm special.
They have no idea just how right they are.

(Hey so this is an actual book. I know calm down this isn't a new project the project is now 100% complete and I will be releasing the entire book on October 28th. To generate hype I brought myself to release the first chapter as a teaser for what's to come. This has been 9 months in the making and I'm so glad the time is almost here when I can show you what I can do. There is no complicated world that you need to read to understand this book but for those who do you can find tons of Easter eggs throughout. Well thats all for now bye =D)