you asked me to write about you
I'm so uninspired
but you spark something in me
in my brain, in my heart
so I'm writing for you
I don't know where to start
I don't know how to put these words in order for them to make sense to you
can I even form sentences to make you understand how important you are?
how much I care about you?
how amazing you even are?
probably not
I'm not very witty or clever
but I can try
I'll try my hardest if all it does is make you smile
your smile is so impressive
how can something so small be so great
your dimples that frame it make my heart skip a beat
you're so handsome and I wish you could see you the way I do
is any of this doing anything for you? or is this just me repeating myself?
I know I tell you that you're handsome
and you don't believe me
but you are
I'll tell you every day until you believe me
I'd commit to that if it made you love yourself
I know it's ironic that I try so hard to get you to see that you're so handsome when I do the same thing
I don't see myself as anything other than bad
but you don't think that at all for some reason
but it makes me feel nice
and sometimes I feel good enough
good enough for someone as amazing as you
all thanks to you
this is getting long
and I could really never write everything I think or feel about you
we've been through so much
I've hurt you
you've hurt me
you might just be using me now
and for some reason I don't care
almost 5 years of your amazing presence is enough to make me ignore that
I hope for more of your time
I want you for however long you let me
whether that be a few days or a few months
I just want to be happy with you
that's all
I want to get better and to make you happy
I want to be able to hold you soon
I want a lot with you
I hope I'm not that much of a burden for you
and I'm sorry that I'm too selfish to let you go
