A Liar's Truth.

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I came across someone today.

They came and sat next to me and asked "why, why do I feel nothing?"

To that I replied "what would you want to feel?"

They said love.

But love is a lie, and I'm a liar.

She said "I just don't feel anything anymore, I'm empty."

She look at me dead in the eyes and said, "why do you always look like that?"

I was confused, look like what?

"you look tired and drained."

She's right, I probably do look like that. It's true I am tired and the constant pain I feel is draining. 

She followed by saying she had written a letter to me, asking me if I wanted to read it.

I said yes.

I read it, as I did, my heart sank.

She wrote how she felt, how it she thinks she's disgusting, fat, a disappointment and how she can't help but hate herself. No matter what she will never love herself.

I folded the letter back up and gave it to her, I watched at her for a moment as she stared blankly into the surrounding area.

I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out.

When I finally spoke, the first thing I said was, I'm sorry.

"I'm sorry that you feel like this. I know how you feel. Its like you're  numb, you don't feel happy or sad, not even disappointed. "

"I need you to know that even though you feel like this right now, believe me, it's a horrible way to feel. I know you can't help it. I want you to know that i want to help you, I don't want you to get sucked into this black whole of emptiness and pain. It really sucks down here." I continued.

She looked at me with tears in her eyes, she looked so broken.

" I want you to come talk to me because once you get to where I am-"

I breathed a tears spring in my eyes.

" there is no coming back and it's a really shitty place to be, okay? I would never want you to go through what I went through. I know it's hard, but I have been in the same position as you and i know you can get better because you're strong. You are stronger than I will ever be.

I just need you talk to me."

She rested her head on my shoulder and cried.

I hugged her.

God do I want save her, because if I can't, this is just the beginning of a never-ending pain that I would never wish to anyone.

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From your favorite liar x.