"When you're around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you. And when they change or go away, you don't know who you are without them"
- Unknown
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If I were to show you all the ways you changed me and the untouched parts you shook, then and only then you could understand how I feel. How I struggle through every day with you being the reason.
But it's not your fault.
I can't stop loving you. I try not to. I try to forget, but it doesn't work that way; it's not that easy. You changed me so much, and so drastically in the shortest time possible. How you managed to do this is something I still don't understand. I can't quite grasp it. Our time together was so dynamic. Maybe that's why I can't let you go. Because we are so dynamic. It always changes; something unexpected always happens. Maybe you'll come back? I can't do nothing but hope.
You're my everything. You made me who I am. You shaped me as if I was clay and formed me into a better, freer me. Or, I thought I was free. That everything was well. But I'm trapped in my love to you. I love you so, and I think that you had feelings for me too at one point. Thats at least what you said..
"I love you nomatter what happens. Remember that."
"I don't believe you."
I can't seem to do anything else than want you. It's like I'm going to die if you're not here with me. Is lust a sin? Because then we have sinned. Because we both wanted each other, that's something I know for sure. I at least hope so. But it's this detail in our story that made you slip away from me: you changed. You weren't good anymore. You had become anyone but yourself, and the one I fell in love with was you.
"How many times do I have to prove that I'm not like everyone else?"
"But you are."
Jeg er så dom – jeg trodde vi hadde bygd ett dynasti. Et dynasti som jeg trodde skulle vare for evig, men det falt ned. Alt sammen falt ned til det bare var ruiner. Ingen deg og meg. Du er borte. Du gjorde at jeg trodde alle delene var sterke; jeg visste ikke at det var noen svake punk. Punkt som kunne rive alt ned. Jeg trodde vi hadde bygd et dynasti som til og med Gudene messunett.
I'm so stupid - I thought we had built a dynasty. A dynasty that would last forever, but instead it fell. It all fell to ruins. No more me and you. You're gone. You made me believe all the parts were strong; I didn't know there was any weak parts. Parts that could tear it all down. I thought we built a dynasty that even the Gods were jealous of.
"You were such a big part of my life."
"I'm sorry."
"I love you."
"You left me."
