Lost to Love (Story On Coco)

misguided ***new girl***

Its been three days already since I got here and yes the students are friendly but i rather be selfish with my self and just be on my own. I really miss Tiara and though we talk almost all the time and text,I wish we came to same school.
   Tiara Lawson is my childhood best friend,we met in a really funny way but since then I haven't really thought of having other friends and I always tell her "Tia if you we're a guy I would definitely want to fuck with you and probably date you" and she would laugh silly and say she would too. I really don't know how to place it but she's my sister girl (someone I could talk to about everything and anything) I love her and she loves me
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**knock knock** I go to the door to open up and I see someone.

Tall,slim and black with light brown eyes she was pretty I thought never seen her around and before I could ask,the pretty thing could talk
Her: hi! I guess you are Coco,I am your new room mate!
Me: sorry, you missed it, the person meant to be here isn't coming till next week so I was told. Are you sure it's this room?
Her: yes I am pretty sure,this is it. I was told Coco's room.
   And she stepped in as i moved to my bed. She moved her things in and I was a bit confused because she had so many boxes and the room was kind of small wanted to ask what she needed so much for but none of my business. I just fixed on my earphones and turned on my laptop trying to ignore the new girl
Her: hi do you mind switching lockers? This is a bit small and my.. 
Me: no can't do!
Her: Oh OK!

  I really love my space and all and can be defensive about privacy
And funny how all the lockers are same size and she didn't notice

Me: the lockers are same size,you just need to work with it.
 
And she nod. That was the last thing we both said to each other till the next day. I had classes so I left really early and when I got back later she had gone for hers. this was our everyday time table so we hardly ever spoke to each other... I'm an art student and she's science but really didn't look like the geek kind to me.

  Soon it was weekend,Friday night and for my 3rd week I got use to the silence of being alone in my dorm while other girls hanged out with friends or with their boyfriends.

I felt those things we're a waste of time. I rather just stay indoor and watch movies,download and read gossips online,that's my kind of fun
Am not anti social I love fun but their kind of fun was a little below my kind.

This week was different,new girl was in and so was I,I knew she wanted to start up a conversation but couldn't get the words maybe she was scared or something I really don't know
And new girl was what I called her,we hardly exchanged words or anything. For the past week she has been around,she leaves me sticky notes with Smiley faces on my locker but I just rather ignore after reading and she still won't stop. the other day she wrote "hi Coco I would be going to the library later and probably get cakes on my way back! Would you want some? Call me and she left her number". I didn't call or drop a reply. I just don't speak to her but I hear her talk with other girls and she seemed cool but I really wasn't interested in knowing her.

Her: Coco?
Me:  **silent**
Her: is it just me or you are really boring,unfriendly and quiet which is scary. You,don't even know my name am sure and you never want to have a talk. I leave you sticky notes and you don't reply. Its almost like you don't want me in this room and it's getting uncomfortable for me!
    I could hear her but I pretended like I wasn't,and then she stopped wanting to leave
 
Me: Blaire! That's your name right ? and I turned back at my laptop

Her: **silent ** walked out of the room.

The thing is,I am just my own type of person and the only one that can understand that is Talia. Blaire is cool but I really don't know if I could be cool around her too. Aside Talia I don't have friends and I never saw the need to but maybe I could try.

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