Before We Surrender. (A Poetry Book)

"PARA KAY E."

Since the very first day I saw you,

I can't get you outta my head,

I can picture your whole being without any hesitations.

you melted my heart,

you draw a smile on my face that I can't hold back,

you made me stare like you are the most precious thing I've ever seen,

you made my mouth shut but drop my jaw at the same time,

I forgot everything that's around,

I just focused on you.

I focused sincerely.

There's nothing special on your looks,

but you caught my attention.

I became this fan girl of yours I never thought I could be.

There's this one person who told me to stop admiring you from afar... but I just can't.

I'm always the girl who spot you from afar, but still manage to smile even thou we were miles apart and even if you don't notice me at all.

I admired you so much,

I fell in love with your eyes more than I could possibly thought.

I gave you almost a hundred letters you never read.

I do crazy things for you to know that I exist,

that I loved you even we walk different paths.

I always pray for your own good sake.

and for once, I cared for someone who doesn't even know my existence.

I just hope we could be something special like I always wanted.

I like to hold your hand and never let go.

if only you could allow me. I'll do.

but opportunity is not visible everywhere we go.

we are almost perfect but we are conflicting with the stars.

maybe I'll just wait until destiny lead us together and when that day finally came,

I promise to make an unforgettable story we could share until our whole entire lives.

I will write our own happy ending and forever.

there are so many people that I have encountered.

but I want you to know that It was still you.

I don't like this feeling but I got nothing to do with this.

because this is what my heart wants.

you are my heart will forever be calling.

the things I've experienced with you was a total strange.

because once in my life, I admitted I fell in love...

I fell in love with someone who's now already found the love of his life.

and it hurts but I'm fine.

maybe it's time for me to let go and for us to move forward.

if it was really you and me in the end...

then we are.

but if not, maybe I'll just admire you again from afar.

and back to the way how it was supposed to be.

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A/N: RIP MY DEAR GRAMMAR HAHAHAHAHAHA.