The Bludd family

Chapter 1

I am sorry that this is going to be confusing, but this is the best way to explain that happened. I know what happened isn't my fault. But I can't help, however to feel guilty over it.

I will try my best to explain everything that happened. It just won't be wrapped in a pretty bow.

My mom was the best person in the world. And I still think that today. I don't blame her for what happened. She was trying her best, even after my dad past away when I was only five years old. The she met him when I was seven. I was scared of him, but I guess that I thought my mom was so happy again that I didn't say anything. But I knew that something was wrong.

Then they got married, and everything went bad. He started to shout at us for the littlest things and that soon, it became physical, mostly towards me, not my mom. I guess he figured that the best way to hurt her was to get to me. Soon, she obeyed him and everything that he wanted, in order to protect me. He forced me to drop out of school when I was fourteen years old, saying that young girls shouldn't go to school as their job was to work at the house, always obeying the man of the house. I hated that and always fought with him on it. I would sneak books into my room whenever me and my mom went shopping for groceries and other things that we needed. My mom wanted me to have an education, and if we had to sneak it, then so be it. I don't think he ever found out until later on, but it felt nice to rebel against him, even if it was for an education and that I would be able to leave.

I will always be scared of him, even as an adult, I will always be scared of him. He is like that monster that hid under your bed, except it stayed with you throughout your life. An neverending nightmare. There are times that he locked me away from everything,as if he wanted me to stay with him forever. He always looked at me with those leering eyes to the point that I was uncomfortable.

On my eighteenth birthday, just before the sun came up from over the horizon, my mom woke me up with a bag ready for me.

"Ruth, get up. We got to go," she said.

"What do you mean?" I asked, confused and still waking up.

" I got you a bus ticket, out of here, far away from here," She whispered as I put on a pair of jeans, black t-shirt and dark purple jacket. As I put on my socks and high tops, my mom explained to me what he had planned for me, that it was to make me stay with him forever until one of us dies. That's the morning that I left that damn house.

The plan was for the both of us to leave for the bus station, but she was going to stay to keep him off of my back and make sure that he would not find me again. I begged for her to come with me,and she said that she was already gone, and that she doesn't have a chance out there. And that I had more of a chance to start a new life without her. I told her that she can start a new life too, and that she can be what she wanted, instead of what he wanted.

However, I can tell that he had gotten into her head, saying that she was nothing without him and that she would be able to become anything without him; something that he tried to tell me multiple times, in which I refused to believe.

"But why help me?"

"You are my daughter. You have a better chance for a new life than me. Remember that I always love you," she said, as we reached the living room.

"Sylvia! Where is she?" he shouted from upstairs.

"I thought he would sleep awhile longer," my mom said, panicked.

"Mom,please come with me!"

"No, I will distract him, you go and get out of this hell," she said, pushing me out the door as she gave me an army green bag.

I ran off the porch and went into the woods. The sun was almost out, giving me light to see but giving him enough light to find me. There was some storm clouds coming in, making me hope that I was able to get into the bus station before the rain starts. I can hear him yelling for my name and my mom screaming for me to run. I started to run faster, scared that he was going to be behind me, ready to grab me once I slow down.