It seems like im always bound to loose. I try i really do, but i cant help it. No one gets it, how could they, its not like they would believe me even if i told them. Right?
Im nellie, a 19 y/o that was born with a gift, or should i say curse. Welcome to my life.
Im an orphaned. My parents died when i was born, along with everyone else that i touched. I was covered and hidden away for 19 years. Until now. Now im just homeless. They're looking for me, they wanna take me back to the same room ive been in my entire life. I cant go back, i wont.
You see, im a danger for the society. A abomination. I shouldnt even exist according to some. Im a mistake that should be erased. I've never expierienced anything a normal kid would have. I've never gone to school, never had friends not even been outside. I've been alone my entire life, now more than ever. This is the first time even being outside. 19 years after been locked in im finally ready to live.
2 days ago i made my escape. The new guard forgot to lock the door after he'd left my dinner and now here i am. In the middle of nowhere. I've read books and seen movies so im well aware that im in a forest. I havent eaten in 2 days and i dont know when my next meal will be. But i can do this, i believe in myself. As soon as i got out of the house i made a run for it. It felt as if i was running for hours, i've never moved my legs like that before. I've walked around in this forest sense.
Theres a town next to the forest, but i dont have the courage to go there. I dont know how to act among people. For hours i've been sat on the edge of the forest looking down at the city and all its people. Its like magic.
My clothes are a bit dirty. I got black leggings on with a light grey big sweater which covers my hands. No shoes or anything else. My brown long hair is up in a ponytail and my blue eyes are watching the world as it goes by. Do i have the courage to go down and take a closer look?
I continue to sit at the same place and the sun goes down. The forest behind me is covered in a beautiful darkness while the road and town ahead of me is lit up. The town has gone empty. I slowly decides to get up and my legs are bringing me closer to the deserted town. I can hear music getting louder as i move closer. I cross the dark and empty road and go into the lit up area at the edge of the town. I stop. Can i do this?
In front of me i see a fountain with beautiful sparkling water. Around it is medium sizes buildings in different colours. The street lights are standing along side the lonely path. I start to move forward to and end up standing in front of the big fountain. I look at the clear water and stares at it. Further into the town i can hear the music i heard earlier. My curiosity got the best if me and i slowly starts walking towards the sound that gets louder. I stop when i get a vision of a large group of people standing in front of a big house with a lot of shining colours outside and inside. I know what that is, its called a club. I've seen it in movies before.
I look at the people that are smiling and laughing outside the club. Theres a certain group of people that catch my eye cuz if how lively they are. They are standing on the side of the building and i decide to move closer. I stop walking and step into a darker area so they wont see me. Its a group with both girls and boys. The girls are wearing short dresses while the boys seem to wear a bit more casual clothing. I stare at each person closely when one boy chaught my attention. He doesnt seem to fit in with the others. His hair is dark brown and his eyes looks brown from this distance.
He looks around and we get eye contact. He stares at me curiously and i at him the same way. He doesnt take his eyes of mine and im starting to feel fuzzy. My heart skips a bit and i wakes up from my stare. When i break the eye contact he does the same and then slowly starts to make his way over to me. I panic and does what every scared animal would in that situation. I run. I run so fast that im not even looking where im going and bump straight into a tall guy with a suit and we both gets knocked down to the ground.
I hear the man saying something and he sounds angry. I stay on the ground but look up the the man as he screams at me as he's getting up on his feets again. I can feel tears coming. He continue to scream at me and i think he wants me to answer him. He starts telling me to get up but im frosen to the hard ground. Eventually i slowly make my way up while he's still screaming at me. "Look at me" he yells and he tears are now falling down my cheeks. Im so scared. He yells it again and pushes me backwards. "Pls dont do that" i quetly get out of me. "I dont wanna hurt you" i continue. He starts laughing and i look at him. "You? Hurt me?" He says, still laughing.
I nod my head before he pushes me back again. Please stop. He does it a third time and to protect me from not falling back on the ground again i take out my arms and before i know it hes on the ground not breathing. I look at my hands and notice that a few fingers are not protected by the sweater. More tears are coming and i start running. Im running as fast as i can. No! It cant be. Why me, I ask myself as i run back to the deep forest.
One thing i forgot to tell you. The reason why i've been locked up my entire life is cause....my hands are deadly.
