“i am someone who is not loved..”
I am mess i don’t believe in the words of love, i am a crazy person who loves do crazy things. My heart is numb, i have no feelings specially for love. Because love kill me. For me promises are just words, no one can fullfill it so did utter it because i know i can’t do it. But it all change the day i met you.
I was literary crazy when you first saw me, you were a doctor for crazy persons. And i am one of your patients. Those beautiful almond eyes caught my attention, yes you were very beautiful, you have an angelic face. A sign of weakness. For a moment you stare at me, maybe you were reading my mind. But sorry love i have a talent of hiding of what’s on my mind. You smiled at me and introduce yourself to me.
Days past you become more attach to me, even i always pushed you away. You kept on telling that “ i will help if you please let me in, please trust me”. Sorry but i have my own beliefs and trusting someone is not part of beliefs. Because i am born to be alone a bad a person in the eyes of many, A villian, and villians don’t deserve happy endings.
My plan was just use you get of this place and create more exciting moments in the city specially to see my favorite toy “batman”. But why is this little space in my heart pound everytime i saw you? No, i have to erase this is not part of plan. Until one night you visit me in my room. You told me you already like me. I was happy finally i can use your feelings to obey my commands.
I made you fall in love with me more. I create fantasies in your mind, i made you believe that i will love you. Let you drown into my world. But i to my surprise i will be the one who will drown to you.
I time i get what i want to you which is to scape and be back to my old self again. I already pushed you away again. But your very hard headed and keep on following me. Maybe because your love for just what you said many times.
“Let me in just, let me in “ “ i love you believe me” words that makes my heart and mind confused. “ i am someone who is loved, i am an idea a state of mind” “ i execute my will according to my plan and you doctor is not part of my plan” words that come from my mouth make the tears fall from your eyes. I know you were hurt, but that is best thing i can do to save myself from this foolishness.
Before i gave my heart but to a wrong woman. She just left me when willing to do everything for her I was also a victim on the game called love. I risk everything for her even it cause my life. She drag me to a misery I don’t deserve. I become what I am today because of her, I loose my mind literally my heart become the prisoner of my past, past that i don’t want to remember. But after that tragic memory i learn something, never believe in words because they will remain as words. They will be come true.
So don’t expect that i will believe in your words. But my mind played apart i tested you. I told you that if you really love me you will throw yourself in the toxic barrel. Because i know you not do it. I was about to turn around when my eyes saw you falling down into that barrel.
I can’t process what i feel. I was shock becuase you really do it. You prove that your feelings were true, and i was wrong for not believing in you. i did not hesitate to rescue you. As i fall i feel the again, the pain that i was holding on many years ago. I hug you, i feel your beat, beating for my name. I made you crazy, so that i will never be alone. But love, this i promise you i will never waste your love for me. I will cherish it. We will make more crazy memories together. You and I, against the world. You and I, till the end. No one can break us apart. Now that you are mine, and i promise that I will be yours.
Before “ I am that someone who is not loved, but now I am that someone who is blessed to love by you.” (
