Sleep Paralysis- Jungkook

Chapter 3

The almost suicide attempt was a rude awakening, the fact that I had nobody, the fact that I can't remember why I have nobody besides me caved me in. The suffocating truth about me being a loner was the harsh fact of my life.

I always assumed that the reason why everyone avoided me was because of Jungkook slut-shaming me and rumours he had spread. It was crazy that I couldn't remember bits of my life, to be honest, I thought I just had a bad memory but the more and more I stare at this white ceiling, the more I think that I am missing a part of my life.

The one year that I spent with Hypnos, that exact one year something must have happened, usually, I can remember what happened before I shut down but that one time, I couldn't remember what happened no matter how hard I try to jog my memories. There were parts of my memory that were fuzzy and I couldn't remember properly, it felt like there was a bit missing in my memories.

All I know is that after that one year everyone started hating me like I was an outcast, I never had friends and I was the quiet one but I was never hated on this kind of level. After hours of thought and dwelling in the realm of unconscious memories, I made a naive decision. I decided to befriend everyone again, if I show unconditional kindness maybe, just maybe they might start to open up...

With a fresh perception of my current life, I bid my mother goodbye and left for school extra early, I was so early that my brother Jimin was still asleep. My innocent mind was so naive when I put handwritten letters in everyone's lockers, it was personalised to the person who was receiving the letter. After I made the trip to everyone's lockers I sat in my designated desk with a dumb smile. It felt so relieving to have made that step forward towards my classmates and the thought of future friends just made me so happy.

Students in my class started to trickle in with their letters in their hands reading it while coming into the class. I smiled widely when Nancy and her group started to approach me, I couldn't believe out of all the girls she was the first one to come to me and be my friend.

Nancy's fox-like smile disappeared when she was in front of me and looking down on me, I was honestly confused why her emotions fluctuated so suddenly.

"U-uh H-hi Nancy...", I shyly greeted her.

"Ugh so annoying", Nancy sudden snap startled me.

"Hand of friendship? You got to be kidding me. I will NEVER be friends with such a monster like you", Nancy's sweet smile finally faded as she snapped at me. She and her friends started to rip up the letters and dumping it on my desk.

Tears started rolling down my face, my heart couldn't take it, I didn't know what was wrong with me. As I cried while Nancy bullied me, Jungkook walked into the classroom he made eye contact with me in my state but he decided to ignore me. I was used to his cold attitude by now but it hurt more the fact that no one was here to stop them.

"I'm sorry...", I lower my head in defeat.

I stood up straight after I said sorry and ran towards my lock to get my books and run away from this hell hole. As I opened my locker, pieces of ripped up paper fell like a waterfall, covering the floor below me with sadness and misery. I convinced myself that I deserved this even though I didn't know what I did wrong.

I was a sobbing mess looking at the countless hours the I used in personalising all these letters and writing them... I looked at the throbbing blisters on my hand which I got from writing these letters and it made me cry even harder.

"Yikes, what happened here?", I heard an unfamiliar deep husky voice, I turned around to see who the voice belonged to but all I found was this unusual boy who wearing our uniform. It's funny because I have never seen him at this school before...

"Do you need a recycling bin? I think I saw one nearby.", He started to speak again, I was stunned and was unsure of what to do... why is he talking to me?

The new guy took the moment of silence as a yes and brought over a recycling bin and started to pick up the fallen pieces of my hard work, and my vulnerability. Instead of crying like my old self I decided to confront the issue head first as I have turned a new leaf and I wasn't going to let this small bump trip me over.

I started to pick up the pieces of paper with the new guy and with a few sneaky glances I found out that his name was Taehyung, if I'm completely honest he was very good looking, with destincive features that just enhanced his visuals... his hair was brown and it glistened in the sun, I couldn't help but notice his boxy smile and crescent eyes when he smiled and laughed.

After we picked up all the pieces of paper I grabbed the recycling bin out of Taehyungs hands and started to walk away.

"HEY, I DIDN'T CATCH YOUR NAME?", Taehyung shouted.

"Thanks for today... my names Soeun, I guess you're new to this school but it's better if you don't talk to me or else you will be labelled an outcast just like me.", I advised Taehyung before turning around again.

Taehyungs POV

"What if I don't want to?"