Love,???

Love, Valerian

Dear, whoever is reading this,

Tonight I decided to go to the movies and I didn't know until today that my local movie theater was doing an early showing of Love, Simon; now movie theatres don't really care if you go from one movie to the next without paying but you couldn't enter this without a ticket so I enter "Game Night" with my parents, all ok right?

Not really, I didn't really love it, it pulled a few laughs but it's been 20 minutes and I can't remember half of it,

At one point I decide to go to the bathroom and burn some time and there is a girl there washing her hands who had come to watch Love, Simon (I may have tried to flirt with her) so I ask her how was the movie so far and she just replied "I have no words" she then asked me why I didn't come to see it early, I told her that I really didn't have the guts to explain to my mother why watching it early was such a big deal to me, after drying her hands she hugged me and wished me good luck.
I went back to my movie and when it was finished we left

When I started writing this I just wanted to tell you a story, but things don't really go right as planned with me

I started thinking, Simon and Blue describes their life as being stuck in a ferris wheel, "one minute being in the top and the other about to touch rock bottom" his words, more or less; funny thing I always saw my life as an old faulty roller coaster that never stops, it has its ups and downs and at any given moment it can flip you upside down leaving you confused and not knowing where to go, pieces may fall off but they always get replaced somehow......

But the thing is I'm not the only one in it, with me is everyone who I love or just know and the only thing keeping them in it is this old worn harness and I fear that if I even say a word out of place anyone's harness will snap and break throwing them out of my life and all I can do is watch or mine might break too...

But there is always this one part of me that wants it to break in the hope that maybe, instead of falling, something catches me and I get to build a new roller coaster and maybe the people who fell off the last one will take another ride with me, a better one, in a roller-coaster that works, and where the harnesses don't break

It's kinda funny, I never saw myself writing something like this, apparently this movie has inspired me to do things I didn't have the courage to do before, and I haven't even seen it; who knows, maybe after I watch it, it will inspire me to build that new roller-coaster, guess we just have to wait and see

Love, Valerian