What I Cannot Say

Part 1

It started innocently enough.

It was when TWICE was attending a fansign event, and a reporter asked them a question.

"Who would you guys choose to stay with if you were stuck on an island?"

As the other members nonchalantly gave their answers, Tzuyu started to panic. Having spent quite some time in the industry, she knew by instinct that this was the kind of question that added fuel to the fire known as shipping. She also knew, not by instinct but by experience, that she had to use the utmost caution on responding to such questions. Reckless answers that favored one particular member would bring down the delicate equilibrium between ships, and depressed shippers- followers of couples with hardly any interaction- were likely to stop being fans of TWICE, something they all tried desperately to avoid.

That did not stop Tzuyu from blurting out the first and only name that came to her mind.

"Jihyo-unnie."

She realized her blunder one split second too late, and before the interviewers had any time to react, she hurriedly added.

"And Momo-unnie. Um, if I go with Momo-unnie, I can eat as much food as I want." That was completely nonsense, seeing as Momo probably ate more than her and could not cook to save her life. Still, anything to distract them was better than nothing. "And if I go with Jihyo-unnie, I can, um..."

Share all private things with her. Shower her with hugs and kisses all day. Cuddle with her at night. Play in the sea with her. Protect her from danger. All kinds of things Tzuyu wanted to do with her leader ran through her mind, from chaste to kinky, from playful to serious, yet none of them seemed appropriate.

"... have her take my photos for free."

Tzuyu only dared to sneak one quick glance at Jihyo's confused stare before visibly shrinking in her seat.

Real smooth, Chou Tzuyu. What the fuck.

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When Dahyun and Chaeyoung got back to their maknae line room, they found Tzuyu lying on her bed, staring at the ceiling lifelessly.

"Hey Tzuyu, what are you thinking about? You haven't even changed yet." Dahyun asked, noticing her friend's attire. The other two had been enjoying a girl's night out with several unnies, while Tzuyu and Mina had excused themselves as soon as they reached the dorm. Mina because she wanted to finish her game, and Tzuyu... well, she was too down in the dumps and too pissed at herself to enjoy spending time with others.

"Hush Dahyun, maybe she's sleeping with her eyes open." Chaeyoung commented with a smile.

"Oh, in that case I should just slap her senseless to wake her up." That elicited an involuntary laugh from Tzuyu. She was still embarrassed from the dance studio incident, where she in a panic had done just that to Nayeon- who was actually napping with her eyes wide open. To this day she still could not understand how it was possible, but that panic act of hers had already became a standing joke.

"Give me a break guys, it was really terrifying." Tzuyu said getting up. There was no point in wallowing in her misery now that her roommates were back. They would be able to give her some good advice, thought Tzuyu.

"Not in the long run Tzuyu, but okay for now." Dahyun conceded, dropping the subject. "You want to talk about something? We're all ears." The Taiwanese girl smiled appreciatively. Air-headed and goofy as she seemed to be, Tofu was actually a great listener should the need arise. Admittedly, she was second to Jihyo in this department, but Tzuyu couldn't very well come to her leader about how she became worse than a bumbling baffoon whenever it concerned that very leader.