I can hear beats
deep from my chest
after an attempt to distract myself,
I let my phone fall
my eyes wandered down to beside me
"what's wrong?"
I sigh
"I'm scared"
he shifts
"really, really scared of you"
it was pretty quiet
"why? you know I wouldn't do anything to hurt you"
I opted to raise my phone again
"I know, you say that all the time"
the night feels colder
"it's just, I can't really tell what's going on in your head"
a hum was heard
"and I've tried to run away, to forget"
his mouth opens,
I panicked
"to forget?"
how do I say this?
"I can't stay this way forever, right?"
before he could ask,
"I know you have your own life now, I know you have new people that you surround yourself with now, I know that I am no longer relevant in your eyes"
before he could protest,
"I have to move on, I'm doing no good. I can't do this anymore"
there was no reply
of course there isn't any
he's not really here
it's all in my head
I sigh again, looking at the empty spot beside me
"you know, you're making this really hard by popping out of nowhere and bringing up something from the past"
