Babybreaths

part 6

I snoozed softly but woke up to a huff. I slowly opened my eyes, blinking a few times before tirning my head, looking at Saiyaku. I curled up even more when I saw him. He looked a bit shocked, wasn't he gonna go to work today? I didn't want him here right now. I could see how his eyes teared up. I raised my eyebrows in surprise as he fell down on his knees beside me and started crying. He took my hand, gently started kissing it. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." he cried. I sat up a little, softly stroaking away some of his tears with my other hand. He looked up at me with big eyes. "I-I'm so sorry- P-please forgive me, I can't lose you" I took a deep breath and sighed before I took his head and hugged him to my chest. I softly stroaked my fingers through his hair. "Promise me you won't do it again... don't drink yourself drunk if you know you can't controll yourself." I heard him whining "I-I promise- I promise." I sighed again, my body still sore. I pulled back and looked at him "I love you, you know that?" He looked at me with big eyes and nodded "I love you too". I smiled softly at him. "Do you wanna stay home today?" He frooze a little... then slowly nodded "I'm sorry I can't be enough for you, but I want you to know... that i'm trying.." He said, weakly. I stroaked his cheek. "don't hurt yourself, taking pauses are alright". I smiled at him and he smiled back. "wanna go out for some breakfast today?"

I held his small hand in mine as we walked to a café. It had been a while since we were out together. I felt so bad and so guilty for everything I've done so I had talked to the guy I worked for too find another guy to fix his shit. I'm gonna become a better man for him... my precious Akihiko. I took a deep breath out of the spring air. We got inside, ordered our sandwitches and sat down by a table. I layed my hand over his on the table, feeling in love. Our food came and we ate, it was really all I needed. Take a break and just, be happy together, leaving the sad a bad things behind us, at least for a few hours. It tasted delicious. I drank my coffee as he smiled at me "maybe we can go for a short walk in the park, now when the weather is so nice?" I asked him even though he looked tired. He drank the last sip of his coffee before nodding. "Yeah, I could really use some sunlight~"

We went out and for the first time in what felt like forever, I felt great. It was warm enough to just wear a thinner jacket. I smiled as we walked hand in hand, everything was like nothing ever happened. He smiled down at me with his handsome face. I could barely even remember yesterday. We stopped by a big tree. He looked around before parting his lips to speak. He looked down at me with his insecure look. God, he was so handsome.

"Will you marry me?"