it isnt noticed but somehow i am slowly sinking into depression and only now have i just realised and its hard
because
i take meds for it and i do a lot to make myself happier and feel better
but some days i dont want to be happy
some days i dont want to force myself to wake up
some days i dont want to force myself to get out of bed or shower
not every day
some days
normally i wake up and im happy
but not anymore and slowly, as cliché as it sounds
i am like a flower wilting
and though once before i was beautiful and alive
i am curling up and shutting off
= x
