i love you. (a daniel radcliffe fanfic)/ Imagines

chapter eleven.

what do you mean he's gone? I asked. well...your father and I got in a really bad argument last night when you were gone. and he left saying he wanted a divorce. and it's not all his fault, I said some things I shouldn't have. anyway, he'll be back here in an hour, and I want you and your brother to be gone when he's here. well, where are we supposed to go when it's pouring outside? I asked. oh, you right said my mother. well, i guess you two can go to your rooms and stay there till he leaves. and try to be quiet, I don't him trying to get you two on his side. but mom I thought there weren't sides. well honey oh, cores there are sides. I'm just not telling you my side. I don't want you to to be any more mad at your dad. he was never fit to be one. okay mom, how long will he be here for? however long it takes him to get all his stuff, but you know your father never got into having more than he needs. yeah, i sad looking down at the shoes my dad bought me. so have you guys been getting in arguments lately? ones that I don't know about. yes, but I don't want to talk about it. 

          alright well, I'll just go to my room then. okay but remember your still grounded. so no Instagram or texting, in fact, no internet. mom, did you forget how grounding works? I asked sarcastically. no, I'm just stressed. okay well if you need anyone to talk to you can talk to me. no honey, not about the things I'm stressed about. okay, I said quietly as I got up from the stool and walked upstairs, and laid on my bed facing the ceiling. love you too sweety replied  Mom.  god,  why does life have to be so hard I thought to my self-rolling over on my side, a tear in my eye. 

         what will make me feel better? I thought. I'm going to listen to music, maybe that will help. what should I listen to? the Walters--I love you so. yeah, ill make a playlist. and ill put my earbuds in and turn it up so loud all my worries get lost, and all I think about s the fact that my music is so loud I can't even think. yeah, that's the best idea I've had in a while. I want to see Daniel I thought as I turned on my phone and put my earbuds in. I wonder If his parents are divorced. God now that I think about it I don't know anything about other than his favorite colors blue and yellow. wow, I wonder if he ever wonders how much he knows about me. know I really want to see him and ask him more questions so I can fill my "jar of random facts". I think my crush on him is growing I thought as I turned on the music. I laid back down on my bed, closed my eyes and turned the volume all the way up. I listened to the first lyrics of the Walters i love you so as I drifted off into a very pleasant filled dreamy sleep. "I just need someone in my life to give It structure".

              I soon woke up to the sound of rain tapping against my window. huh I thought, it's still raining. I wonder what time it is I thought as I sat up in bed. it was 12:34 pm. jeeze I whispered, I slept for a long time. and my music stopped. wow, so I listened to all 67 songs on my playlist. I wonder what happened when my dad came over. they must not have gotten into a terrible argument if they even got into one. I hope my mom is okay, I hope my dad is okay as well, but my mom is more fragile. I wonder where my dad is going to live without enough money to buy another house. I guess he'll live in an apartment for a while till he earns enough for a good house. he was always the businessman of the family. my mom was good at work too, but it was my dad's income that we usually depended on. oh gosh, what are we gonna do without that income now that he's gone. I'm sure my mom will figure something out. one less mouth to feed, right?( as I'm sure you can tell I'm not very good at cheering myself up).

                  I wonder what Daniel is up to right now. sleeping obviously. well, maybe he isn't, I mean remember that last time we texted? it was around this time. I took my earbuds out of my ears and went to the text message page and started typing. oh wait I thought, I'm grounded I shouldn't be texting...but I really want to know what he's doing. well, what if he actually is sleeping like he's supposed to be doing at this hour said the little annoying voice in my head named logic. yeah you're right I thought to respond to logic, I should just put my phone down and actually go to bed and respect the fact that I'm grounded and shouldn't be on my phone at all. okay yeah, I'll do that. good night phone. 

               I woke up again this time really early. it was only 5:12.  I wonder if my mom is awake. (as you can tell I wonder a lot). so I got up and walked downstairs. and to my surprise, she was awake and making coffee. oh, hey mom I said with a bit of confusion. hi, sweety she replied, what are you still doing in your clothes from yesterday? oh well, I fell asleep in them. how did it go with dad? uh, it was fine she said, we didn't too mad at each other. is all his stuff gone? um, yes only a few things like his favorite rocking chair and some of the clothes he left behind saying he could just buy them again. with what money? I asked. don't be snarky my mom said, he may be gone but he still is your dad. yeah I said, it's just...how did I not know you two weren't happy together. well, honey, my mom said. we didn't want you to know, it would have added to your angst. well yeah but now my angst is off the charts because yesterday went from me being grounded to now you two hate each other!! we don't hate each other Susan my mom replied. well, I don't see how you two want a divorce but don't hate each other. it's complicated Susan said, my mom. god, WHATEVER MOM! I yelled storming out of the house not even thinking about the fact that my mom was hurting too, I mean how was she supposed to deal with two now angry teenagers on her own. I slammed the door behind me and walked over to the well. I looked down into it and wished as hard as I could to wake up from this nightmare. but I couldn't wake up, it was reality dressed in nightmare clothing. I slumped down leaning up against the well and started sobbing. god, I whispered. why did this have to happen to me!? I said a little louder.

          I don't wanna cry about this. I just want to do something that will get this off my mind. but im grounded so there's not much I can do about that. maybe if I just read a book. I wiped the tears off of my face, stood up and went around to the back of my house. as soon as I opened my back door I was greeted by a little kitten. what in the world I said. he's yours said jake coming from around the corner. is this the kitten you were gonna give to me for Christmas? yeah said jake, I heard you and mom arguing yesterday and I wanted to make you guys feel better. so I went to the store and got mom some chocolate and flowers, and I went back to the shelter and got you the kitten again. so no one had adopted him? no said jake, and they recognize me cause I made a little trouble the last time I was there. what kind of trouble I asked picking up the kitten. nothing important said jake. but I hope you like him jake said, oh I love I replied. what are you gonna name him? asked Jake. I don't know I said, but I know whatever I chose will be perfect for him. okay well, im gonna go see what mom is up to said jake starting toward the kitchen. okay, I said looking at the kitten with adoration. I think I'll name you Shiloh I said turning toward the stairs. I think I've found something to get my mind off of my parents, and you little Shiloh are exactly it.

wow and actually long chapter, FINALLY! thanks again for reading this far. please vote and comment, and i hope you all have a lovely day! BYE!!!!!