Life Is Cinema:Book 2 (Macklemore&RyanLewis Fanfic)

Chapter 1

Chapter 1: Until Reality Blends Into Dreams

RYANS POV

I opened up yet another beer and downed it. I stared at the empty beer cans surrounding me and sighed.

Is this really what my life has come to? My life was perfect a few months ago, I had a little girl, a girlfriend and friends that all meant the world to me. It all came crashing down so quickly.

It had happened 3 months ago. We had left the after party of Ben and Amy's wedding. Jackie hadn't drunk and she would be driving, and I only had a few. It was a good night. One to remember. Oh boy would I remember it. But for all the wrong reasons...

We were driving home, we were about 10 minutes from our house when an oncoming car swerved into our lane and hit us. We were both knocked unconscious but I remember looking to my side to see Jackie covered in blood. I heard someone yell and then everything's blank after that. I woke up in hospital, apparently I had been in a coma for 2 weeks.

*Flashback*

I woke up to see my parents, my sisters and Ben and Amy huddled in this enclosed room. My eyes were hazy but as I took my surroundings in I realised I was in a hospital. I didn't have a clue what had happened. I wondered where Jackie was. Ben's eyes widened as he saw me awake,

"Ryan, Ryan can you hear me? Oh my god Ryan you're awake!" He shouted.

Everyone had shocked but happy expressions on their faces. Amy called for a doctor in the corridor.

"Ben? Where's Jackie?" I asked.

Everyone looked down and Ben started playing with his fingers...

"Ryan, Im so sorry..." He looked down at the floor.

"Sorry for what? Ben what's happened?!" I was so confused.

"Someone tell me what happened!!!" I shouted.

"She didn't make it Ryan. Im so sorry." My sister, Laura, told me.

I thought this was a dream. I shook my head but I couldn't wake myself up. Was this reality?

My face got hot and tears began to pour from my eyes. I broke off all the cables around me that were hooked up to various different machines. There was all this beeping around me, but soon my hearing went. Everything was muffled and distant as I tried to stumble towards the door.

BENS POV

The doctors ran in and tried to restrain Ryan. He was kicking and punching trying to get up but they all pinned him down. It hurt to have to see this.

"Mr Lewis please calm down." One of the doctors said.

"CALM DOWN? HOW THE FUCK CAN I CALM DOWN WHEN YOU'RE TELLING ME MY GIRLFRIEND'S DEAD. YOU MUST BE WRONG I NEED TO GO AND FIND HER GET OFF ME"

Ryan began shouting muffled words which turned into screaming. One of the nurses injected him with something and he relaxed as they put him back into bed and hooked back up all the machines.

He cried and cried and I didnt know what to do. I hugged him and he just cried hot tears into my chest.

"She cant be" He kept whispering over and over again.

After a few hours he had calmed down. He had just sat there in silence. I told him I was gunna go home and come back to check on him tomorrow. He didnt even acknowledge that I was standing there talking to him. He didnt even nod. I knew that he would need me now more than ever. He's helped me through so much and now its my turn to repay him.

*present day*

RYANS POV

So now here I was. Wasting my life away. I hadn't seen Ben for a few weeks. The first couple of months he would come and check on me every single day. He was so supportive, but within the last month I had just given up. We hadn't been in the studio since the accident. I didn't feel like being creative, I just wanted to hold Jackie.

Abigail had mostly been at my Mum and Dads and with Ben and Amy. I had only been seeing her about twice a week. I felt like a bad father, but I couldn't properly look after her. I wasn't what she needed right now.

There was a knock at the door. I ignored it, sitting in the dark living room and staring at the ceiling.

"Ryan, I know you're in there c'mon its Ben." He pleaded with me to open the door.

Ben had been so good to me through all this shit. He had always been there, but sometimes I just wanted the ground to swallow me up. I wanted to be taken away from here.

After relentless banging I realised he wasn't going to leave I opened the door and Ben came walking in. He saw all the empty cans around the room and shook his head.

"I know how hard it's been for you man but you gotta get your life back together. You have a daughter who needs you now more than ever." He told me.

"I just feel like I will never be happy again. How can I be? And as for Abbi, she deserves better than me." I stared blankly at the floor.

"Stop feeling sorry for yourself. I know you've been through a lot but what's happened to the old determined Ryan who made me get sober. He wouldn't give up like this. You have too much to lose Ryan. Your daughter, your friends, your career, your family. You have to get your life back on track sometime, and sitting here drinking and smoking isn't going to do that. What's Abbi going to think when she grows up and sees that her dad just gave up on her? She's already lost her mum, are you gunna make sure she loses her dad too?" He shouted.

Every word hit me hard. I had been in the worst frame of mind the past few months, and that was pretty understandable. But I have to be the person I was to make Jackie proud. I have to look after Abbi, it's what Jackie would have wanted. I need to make sure Abbi grows up knowing how much both I and her Mother loved her. I have to pull myself back together.

I began to cry, I didnt know if they were happy tears or sad tears. Ben pulled me into a hug.

"We'll get through this. I promise." He smiled.

I couldn't express how thankful I was to Ben. He was the one person that had been by my side throughout this all and he was the one who made me see sense when I didn't think I had any.