Lost.

24

Skylar's POV

"My mom's alive," I said as I went up to my father, "Why did you lie to me?"

"What makes you think that?" he replied for the first time in a while

"Lucy told me," I answered

"Luciana?" he asked, "What lies did she tell you?"

"More like what lies did you tell me and my mother?" I said sternly 

"I don't know what you mean," My appa answered

"You know exactly what I mean, Appa," I said, "I just want you to tell me the truth."

He finally took a deep breath and sighed.

"You're right, I lied to you," he said as he gave up, "Your mom is alive."

"And why did you lie?" I asked

"You see, your mother and I were married for 3 years before you were born. Just before you were born, I met Jaclyn at work, she was a patient. I kinda, fell for her, and a few months after you were born, she and I got pregnant," my dad said, "And I decided to be responsible for my actions, but I didn't tell your mother about any of this. She found out when Lucy told her when she saw me with Jaclyn."

"So you cheated on my mom," I said bluntly as tears were beginning to run down my cheeks, "You could've just told me, you know."

"I know I should've told you. I sorry," he answered

"Why did you take me then?" I asked, "Why didn't you leave me with her?"

"I felt like I needed to be responsible for my actions," he replied, "She also asked me to because she said she believed that you would have a brighter future with me."

"But why? How could it be 'bright'?" I asked

"She wouldn't be able to feed you. She worked as a waitress," my dad answered.

(A/N: For better feels, I would listen to a sad song. I would recommend Don't Wanna Cry by Seventeen, I NEED U,  Stigma, or RUN)

At this point, I couldn't take it any more and ran to my room and grabbed the exacto knife that I had almost forgotten about out of my desk's drawer. 

I looked in the mirror, tears running down my face.

One. 

For Taehyung getting hurt in the parking lot.

Two.

For Soomi's phone stolen.

Three.

For Jin's wallet stolen.

Four. 

For Soonhee's accident

Five.

For Soomi almost getting kidnapped.

Six. 

For my dad's lies.

This time I let the cuts bleed, without bandaging them, as I felt like I would never need bandages ever again. 

I took out a piece of notebook paper and started writting.

Dear Appa, Jaclyn, and Heaven,

I'm sorry for being a horrible daughter and sister. I wish I could've really been part of your family, but I feel like I was just an outsider. 

I'm sorry Jaclyn, for being such a bad step daughter. I tried to like you, but I just couldn't. I hope you forgive me for this.

I'm sorry Heaven, for being such a horrible sister. I'm sorry for not being there for when you wanted to talk. I'm sorry for not wanting to play with you as a child. I'm sorry for not being so caring towards you. I'm was just so full of my self, and now I feel like such an idiot and I don't think I deserve to be here anymore.

And dad, sorry for being such a burden to you. I hope you forgive me.

Please don't try to stop me from doing anything. Your lives will be much easier and better without me.

For the last time, I'm sorry.

Love, 

Skylar

I left the tear stained paper on my bed and left through the window of my room.

Running in the pouring rain, I went to the only place I could think of where someone may still accept me, even with all the mistakes I have made. I ran to Taehyung's house and rang the bell to his gate.

I saw his silhouette  open the door of his home and head to the gate, where I had fallen as my legs had given out.

"Sky?" he whispered

He saw me and ran to me, helping me get up. He took me to his living room, put a towel around me and turned on the TV as he went to the kitchen to make tea.

Halmeoni  then saw me crying and came to me, giving me a huge hug. Taehyung came back form the kitchen with some tea. I took the tea from him and saw on the news that the Han River was flooding from so much rain. 

My eyelids began closing until I fell asleep.

***

I woke up in his room. I looked at my arm, which stung in pain as Taehyung was tending my cuts with alcohol.

"You don't have to," I said, beginning to cry, "It's useless, l-like me."

He just stood up and left to the restroom. He came back a minute later and told me he would have to go buy groceries. 

After he left, I saw he had a notebook and a pen on his desk, so I got up and ripped a paper off of his notebook and began writing.

Dear Taehyung,

I'm sorry for everything that has happened to you because of me. Don't worry, none of this will happen ever again to you, or Jin, or Soonhee, or Soomi, or Jungkook. 

Please tell them that I will miss them too, just as much as I will miss you. Please don't think this is your fault. Everything that happens around me is my fault. 

You are such a great friend and so are the others. Please tell them that I apologize for everything that has happened to them. 

You all will be safer without me. No more threats from 'Unknown'. No more accidents. No more burdens.

I love you,

Skylar

 I made the bed and left the paper on Taehyung's bed and headed to where no body would find me ever again. 

As I was heading out, Halmeoni asked me where I was heading.

"I'm going to take a walk near Han River," I answered

"Please be careful, okay? The river is flooded. I don't want you to get hurt," she answered

"I will, Halmeoni. Goodbye," I said

What she didn't know, is that this would probably be the last goodbye I would ever say.

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Guys, I think I actually cried as I wrote this.

Just want to say this, but if any of you guys ever need to talk because you feel like Skylar, I am always here to talk, okay?

Remember, there is always someone that loves you, even if you don't notice.

With a lot of love,

-A