Tonight you lay there fast asleep I pray to have my soul to keep, keep from drowning in the unknown in the sorrow of the past. My inner demons are dragging me down again the fake smile has appeared again. But I thought letting your feelings out would make you better. Feel more alive. Not have the feeling of ending your life. But I guess that's it. She has left me and I have closed. Changed into a person mama does not know. Even tho she is gone.The pain she still held on me is here. You say I know what you are going through. But you don't. I will admit your life is shit but you walked out on her I locked me in. I lived with the locked door for years on end until one day she broke me free and that was the end. I hated going for she was alone but like they say you need a break of your own. The habits I have now from that are dragging over you are my sister but I do not treat you like so. Like a child, I need to protect tho. I am trying to work on it be a new me a better but it's not happening not yet maybe never.
