Destiny

After celebrating my grad concert i decided to going first.

When i was going home, i found a letter in front my door.

I picked up and i brought it inside.

I opened it and i recognized this handwriting.

I knew who send to me,,, it's her... Acchan

Someone that i got well acquainted when we in AKB

Now we both had graduated.

                           Thank you for your word " Yee "

                           During this time.

                           Now let me say " Yee " to you

                           Who never realized

                          That i have feeling fond to you.

                          Since a long time ago

                          I was trying to be close to you.

                          But your teasing made me closer to her.

                          Perhaps you never watched me.

                         But deep inside my heart i was still hoping,

                         Until everything was too late.

                         Slowly i was understand that i was not belong in your heart.

                         Now i just could hope that you always fine and got happiness.

After read her letter some moments when we together recalled again

" yee acchan and midget playing around together "

" yee acchan and midget practice together "

" yee acchan and midget go home together "

I feel bitterness spread over all my body. Why she send this letter now?

FEW YEAR LATER

I was walking in the park, i looked around and i saw someone familiar. She was reading a magazine. I approached to her.

" hey Maeda san it's been awhile, how are you? "

" eh!!! Yuko san,,, hi! Yes it's been awhile, ,,, i'm fine " she answer with disbelief look

" wah ,,, it's been along time not seeing you Maeda san, you was so busy so that hard to hang out together nah? "

" it's not as busy as you Yuko san" what she said not wrong

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Oh there's a silence, i don't like awkward situation like this. It's time..

" ettou i want to apologize acchan " i was trying call her by her nickname

" ....... why ? " i thought she know what i mean

" because of my ignorance without realizing i hurt you "

" not you're not " she shake hear head " maybe i'm the one who fool, i've been waiting and waiting until you're realize about me but didn't. Perhaps i shouldn't send that letter to you even though i can't hold it anymore.... But now it's too late isn't it? I was too shy to be close to you, so that i was trying to know about you more by getting along with her. I was asking about you with her, for to know what was you like , when your birthday and many thing. Even first time when she ask me for dating, i accept it hopefully you're jealous in order to get your attention " she's begun crying " everything i've already done to get your attention but what i've gotten from you? ,,,,, you always teasing me with her. Actually until now i'm still hoping but finally i have to face the truth that what i've dream will never come true. So i realized that maybe you and me it's not destined together. At least i just want you to know what i feel."

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i stared at her who wipe her tears. " ne acchan if you said you've been trying to get my attention and you also want to make me jealous. in fact you've make it successfully. Because i have feeling for you too ,,,, in past. When i entered in AKB i got interest to you, but i was upset because you always with that midget, so finally i can only teasing you with her. She was my best friend too, so she told me that you always asking about me. But i was deny almost anything about you who as if thinking about me. I was always keeping my feeling secretly until,,,, the destiny playing with us. She was react not usually, i just guess that she loving someone and she told me that she like you acchan,,, she thought maybe you like her because you always to be close with her by asking about me. She thought it's your way to close to her. Because of that i began thinking maybe you'll be happier with her than me. My best friend whom i know well. " i explained everything to her.

She looked down trying to figured out, and then she slowly to approached me.

" so that's the truth? You're the one who relent to your best friend. But now we have known our own feelings. And if your feeling never changed,,,,,, is it time for us to be together? " acchan said while hold my hand

" i'm sorry acchan " i said while remove her hand " like what you said, everything was too late. You already with her, you and me have known where's the true or false. We have our own ways acchan. If there is a little feeling, just let be our memories although accompanied by deep regret. "

That time suddenly was raining signaling the end of our conversation. And helping her to hide her tears running down her cheeks.

Fin